Chapter 2 - Nightmare
Moving up will be next week. Kakatapos lang ng practice namin dahil napili ako as Emcee. Right now andito ako sa room with David Alexander Lee Santos. I used to call him Xander, xander my love hehehe. May sasabihin daw sya e.
"I'm courting you for almost 2 months. Makakapag-antay pa ako. Pero natatakot akong baka maagaw ka pa ng iba kasi mag babakasyon na.. so can you be my girlfriend?" Him, Xander my love of my life. But...
"But xander alam mo namang bawal pa akong mag boyfriend diba? I thought your gonna wait until i reached 18 years old. You know i love you so much. Ayoko lang talaga at hindi ko kayang magsinungaling kay mom and dad. Do you understand me naman diba xander?" Me and i flashed my sweetest smile and he smiled back.
"Then lets just keep this as a secret. Pwede naman yun diba?" Xander.
"But hindi ko kayang magsinungaling sa parents ko." Me. Nawala yung smile ko because of the thought of it.
"But you said you love me." Him
"Yes i said that and i mean that. But the thing is i....." Me. He cut me off
"Then pumayag ka na maging girlfriend na kita. This is the LAST time na tatanungin kita. Can you be my girlfriend?" Him, emphasizing the word last. I dont know what to say. I love him but i love my parents too. Di ko alam kung ano sasabihin ko, naramdaman ko nalang na tumutulo luha ko and his smile was change i could see anger and pain on his eyes.
"Scarlett wag ka namang ganyan. Kung mahal mo talaga ako papayag ka diba? Secret lang naman e." Him and humakbang siya papalapit sakin , i stopped him.
"No. Stop. Dont go near to me. Stay where you are. Please." Me. i dont know what to say anymore, napahagulhol nalang ako ng iyak. I cant afford to lose this guy but i think i should.
"P*t*ng*na naman eh. Mahal mo ba talaga ako? T*ng*na Sacrlett. Akala ko ba mahal mo ak......" Him. I was shock. This is the first time na minura nya ako, i can feel na galit na galit sya sakin. Di nya natuloy sasabihin nya dahil bigla ko syang niyakap.
"Xander im so sorry. I love you and thats true but i also love my parents. I just cant lie to them. I thought you understand me." Me. At iniharap ko ang mukha ko sa akin bali medyo magkatapat na mukha namin kunti lang naman taas nya saakin e.
"Akala ko nga rin *smirk* sorry. Hindi ko na kaya to. Mahal kita pero pakiramdam ko kinagago mo ko. I think i'll just stop courting you. Your just wasting my time." Him. Shit. Tinanggal nya ang pagkakayakap ko sakanya. Wait his gonna leave me? No. I cant. I dont care about this fucking pride.
"N-no no no. Your..n-not l-leav-leaving me right? You said you l-love me. Please dont do..t-this to me. Please stay.. p-please." Me. Naguutal utal na ako. hagulhol na ang iyak ko e. Until he said those words that break my heart into pieces.
"No. I dont love you anymore. I hate you damn much!" Him. Habang naglalakad sya palayo. No, i love him.
"X-xander. I-i know...y-yo-your lying. C-come back. I-i-i love you! Xander... xander. XAAAAAAANDER D-DONT L-L-LEAVE ME."
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Nagising akong umiiyak at dahil narin sa gumigising sakin. Shit i dreamt about it again. No not a dream a night mare.
"N-no. No. No." yan nalang nasabi ko. At tiningnan yung gumising sakin its kuya. My kuya is already here! I should be my happy but nas nangibabaw yung sakit na nararamdaman ko ngayon. The time na nalaman kung si Kuya Nathan ang katabi ko, i immediately hug him, and cry on his shoulder.
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