Para-Noir

Chapter 4

He was fixated on me with depressed eyes as he brought his hands to his face and massaging his face then sliding his fingers down to the bridge of his nose where he just held it and let out a ragged breath.

He just leans on his desk watching me and I twitch under his gaze. I reach out to him, though I still hold his robe I think be needs more comfort than I and touch his chest with my hand.

Snape just allows me to do such a small thing and I take it a step farther by resting my head on collar bone; relaxing instantly I feel his arms around me. I smile and play with the tip of his hair with some strong reassurance that everything will be okay.

"You should never go through this... He's...(pulling his wand out he places a silencing charm on his office and then a charm that I've never heard of) Harry, there's so much that I know and so much everyone has been hiding from you."

"You're mother... She was a Death Eater just like I, back when they fought for equality not death and destruction. When Tom was a hero and hadn't been poisoned and made those horcruxes. Albus was the true... Is the true evil in a lot of this... I guess all of it. He sent Tom on a goose chase... And I lost my sister figure and-"

"Sister figure?"

He pulls me so I can stare into wet eyes that speak nothing, but sorrow and self loathing. I run my hand across his cheek then cupping his face. He brings our noses close to one another and I can't express how hot I am from this little show of affection.

"You're mother (my eyes widen) she was the perfect woman, beautiful, intelligent, caring and forgiving. She was my best friend and my sister figure... Your father always bullied me because he thought I wanted her in another way, but I don't have any interest in women. I lost everything the day your mother died until Minerva brought you to Hogwarts to show that you were still alive. I hadn't seen you before then trying to bring Tom back to who he was and Albus trying to get me to make a potion for eternal life. So, when I saw this small bundle of a child with ten fingers and ten toes, you had a full set of hair with the strangest array of curls I've seen, you were so small... Then you opened your eyes and my heart ached when I saw these beautiful emerald eyes before me and I fell into this trance where nothing matter, but your safety... You stayed with me for a month before Hagrid cane for you... That was the most horrifying day on my life. The child who I loved and wished to protect was now leaving my side..."

He was crying now. Tears fell down from onxy eyes that made me hold onto him tighter. He burrows himself into my neck and I was nothing more than to hold him to me and find out the truth... The Headmaster, The Dark Lord, and now the information that Snape wanted to raise me kinda ruined my already blossoming crush for him, but didn't.

I just need answers and something tells me my God-parents have them, but I need Snape to calm down so I can try to get more information, yet I don't want the proximity between us to falter and I kiss his ear.

Holding him close I snuggle into his neck, breathing in the smell of burning ash and forgiveness. I didn't want to ever leave this man alone or stay away from him. He honestly cared about me... I needed him.

He needs me.

"Professor Snape-"

"Severus, please call me Severus. After all I am crying on your shoulder. Professional titles are far beyond us Hariwald..."

"Hariwald?"

He pulled me away from him to stare into my emerald eyes and I into his onyx. I think this was a sign that my entire life, everything I have known and fought for as well as against...

Was a lie