Para-Noir

Chapter 5

There was so much to talk about, but I was at a loss. I thought I knew everything about myself until Severus began to cry on my shoulder and I was gone like a bottle with a messqges being tosssd in the tide, there was no way I could feel anything less then scared right now. I held him close to me juzt trying to sooth him, when I look around tne room for tissues or napkins... nothing?

I kissed his forehead and pulled him to look into my eyes, his blotches of red and black eyes almost seem copper. I couldn't stand the sight of him and how deshivled he became in mere seconds, grasping his hand I walked with him to the couch. He seemed lifeless... Would the past always be this painful for him?

"I need you to explain as much as you can Severus, (pressing his cold hands onto my chest) please. Who am I?"

He was frustrated like he wanted to tell me all of the answers he knew, the stories, my life... All and more. I didn't want to stress him or cause anymore pain for the poor soul, but who am I? How could he know so much and not tell me all this time.

"You're Godparents will be here every soon, we need to find a way to get to the Shrieking Shack..." He pulls a handkerchief from his sleeve and I laugh at how magician like that is.

"What?" He sneer with dishonest hatred.

"You! You have no idea what you just did Severus?" He places a finger on my mouth when the office door creaked open almost timid like.

A large black dog prowls into the room, eyes scanning carefully until he barks and trots beside me, forcing himself between the distraught potion master and myself.

"Pad-" the dog snarls.

A man with red hair enters the small almost crowed office, wearing all black with a claw mark slashed across his face and I couldn't believe that it was Remus.

"You-" Padfoot growls again.

The door is silently shut and two wordless wards are placed on the room. Padfoot became my God father and tears began to well in my eyes as I held Severus hand. After a yawn, an odd noise and a sly grin Sirius held out his arms to me. Nothing in this world could stop me from holding him.

"Sirius, I've missed you. I feel like I haven't seen you in years." My cheeks were cupped in callused hands as I stared into grey eyes that hold a charge of fire and warmth.

"My little pup, Meelin knows how I've missed you as well." He places a chaste kiss on my nose then glances at Remus attemping to feed Severus chocolate.

"I don't-"

"EAT IT!" Remus smiles at the depressed professor, offering the simple bar of chocolate.

I found myself just snuggling into my God-father's chest there was something oddly satisfying watching everyone stay in harmony so well with one another that I coukd have sworn they were friends for years and not just man holding a grudge against his two ex-bullies. I place a kiss on his chest and I grab his hand pulling Sirius toward the couch.

"Affectionate aren't we my love?" Sirius chuckled and touch the spot where I kissed.

I'm blushing and I notice that Snape keeps staring at me, but in a way that makes my heart flutter. I clear my throat and all the positive engery in the room seemed to drop like bricks from my God-parents, Remus twiddles his thumbs and Sirius pulls me onto him lap laying his head agasint my back and taking slow breaths.

"Severus, Peter was-" Snape shook his head.

"You need not to explain our friends murder, but maybe should explain to Harriwald what in the world is going on, because he already got some information from me about who he really is."

I was lost, Peter was murdered? Who could have done such a thing. Silence filled the room as Remus pades back and forth in front of us with a fixated look and I felt Sirius humming to calm me down, but I was confused, I figured they wanted Peter dead... so why are they so upset about it?

"Padfoot, we have no choice my stars, Harry, is.... has to know of course this will be shocking, but as much as we can explain then we will have to leave again it's bad enough we can't entirely sneak in and out of here, but we cannot risk Harry in this battle just yet, then again this is our (gestures to all of us in the room) war... just we need to be more prepared. "

The men seemed to have some mental agreement, but a hand on my mine makes me question if what I'm about to hear is something I'm ready for.

"Harry, this will all be hard to digest and believe us when we recovered our memories from the past, we realized how horribly wrong our lives were told to us. For starters Severus was never bullied by us, your supposed father was actually a cousin of mine and was only an arse to Severus because Prongs thought Dragonoint... Yes, he has a name too... Was in love with your mother Lily, jokes on us all when she fell in love with a much older and powerful wizard."

I became lost and looked at Snape, he merely shook his head and glanced at Moony who now chuckled at the odd glances he was receiving from the Potion Master and myself. I think I was staring in utter lostness because I don't remember the Mauder's Map having a fifith name.

"Two things, where did that name come from and the map?"

"Dragon- because his anger and oint- like ointment or some form of potion. As for the Map, Severus didn't help with it because during that time Snape was bed ridden in the hospital for reasons we shall not say." Remus speaks with caution on the last one and I know there's something wrong.

"Harry, our memories were earsed by Albus, we were told that your birth father was the enemy and we stopped being friends with Snape because we were told so, most of our childhoods are blurry because of that sick man, but our hope is to find a way to remember who and what we are. Darling your father is in danger from Albus, the Wizarding World and himself."

I knew the answer who my father is, it scares me who he is, but I know. My mother is Lily, but James wasn't my father... then who am I?

"Who is my real father." There was no need to question. I already knew the answer, but I wanted to hear it.

I needed to hear it to make it real...