Mr. Blake's body

Chapter 12

Sunday June 23

Movies and margaritas with Deacon was fun. I drank way too much and ate more pizza then I should have so now I will have to put in an extra hour at the gym just to work some of it off, but it was worth it. Deacon made me laugh all night just so he could hear what he calls the " pigena" ( pig- hyena).
I have had to hire movers for the second time this week to lug all the crap Jessup bought back to his place along with a letter that took all of two minutes to write, and it said

Jessup,

You can choke on your lame excuses and apology. I do not want this crap so do not send it back to my apartment. Either throw it away or give it to the next poor desperate woman who falls for your lies because I am done. You asked for a second chance and like the screwed up woman that I am, I gave it to you but you fucked it up. You had your chance but I guess your toothpick bottle blonde was more important. On the bright side looks like you get to be a Dom again, so good luck to you and your new puppet.

- January

Hopefully now he will leave me alone, but I highly doubt it. I have a feeling that he was completely serious when he said he wasn't letting me get away.
The fact that we had only really dated for less than a day should make moving on easier but I would be a liar if I said that I didn't care about him. Truth is he made me feel special and wanted even if it was a lie. During the short time I have known Jessup made me realize that I didn't want to be a single mom and alone forever.
Knowing how he is I know that he is going to show up at my door at some point and he will most likely be pissed for the letter that I sent him and knowing me I will let him in and listen to what he has to say but I will not make it easy for him. If he is willing to fight for me and go through what ever it takes to win back my trust then I just might give him another chance.
Who do you think you are kidding January, you know that if that sex God comes knocking at your door and begs you to forgive him you will, not only because he makes you feel wanted but because you know that he is a good man and will be good to you and Bennett.
Seriously my inner goddess needs her lips glued shut. No one asked for her opinion even if it is the truth. God what am I going to do. Being in a relationship like this will not be good for Bennett and I will not have him around someone that is going to crush my hopes of a future at every turn.
I wish me and Bennett could go on a vacation and get away from the city for a while. Maybe we can go back home to Black Bear North Carolina and spend a few days. I never sold the house I shared with Jack and I haven't been back since the day that I left nine years ago. My phone beeps pulling me out of my thoughts. I pick it up and see that I have a text.

[ please have dinner with me so I can explain ] - Jessup

I knew he wasn't going to let this go and I have to be honest a small part of me is glad he didn't, but that doesn't mean I am going to forget about what happened.

[ fine. I'll come by your penthouse Monday after I leave work and we can talk there. ] - Jan

His reply is almost instant.

[ I can't wait to see you. ] - Jessup

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Monday's always suck, I have been in meetings with clients all day and before I could leave I had to help with the inventory for the store, organize the stock room, and make a long ass list of all the new designers that has sent stuff over to be put on the store room floor. Which by the way took four hours.
I finally get to leave at seven thirty and all I really want is to go home take a bath and spend some time with my son before I go to bed, but since I told Jessup I was coming I might as well get this over with and see what the donkey has to say. Thankfully I had told Julie I wouldn't be home until after nine so that saves me a phone call.
I take a cab over to the Dark Horse and drag my tired fatt butt into the lobby. It's a good thing I forgot to give Jessup his penthouse key card back because my phone died on the way over here. I take the elevator up to the twenty third floor and I am greeted my a sulking, beautiful, messy haired Jessup.

I didn't think you would actually come over, but I am glad that you are here. I have missed you.