Inazuma Eleven Big Book Of Randomness 3

I Feel Pathetic Now

I don't even know why I'm still hurting my head over you now. Guess seeing you today was too much. But yeah it's your birthday today. I didn't wish you happy birthday though. No I'm not being petty but I left the country before not expecting to see you ever again so I didn't set a reminder this year. Coming back here for so long is something I regret but no need to worry when the summer comes I'm leaving again and this time for good. You won't have to wonder if I'm gonna ruin your life even more. You had an exam today I heard you passed. Guess you're still pissed I told my mom not to sign you up for it. I saw your girlfriend yesterday. She came to my mom's car with her friend and couldn't even say good morning. I saw her this morning as well but she was in your arms. You give the best hugs I could never forget. I'd look forward to them everyday. Now you barely even give me a handshake. I noticed you replaced me with a different female best friend. Oh well that's life I guess.

I just want one question answered. Why do you make me feel like this? I try to forget you and Monday you'll walk into my mom's class and my heart smiles. We'll have a lovely conversation and your girlfriend might walk in and all of a sudden we were never talking in fact I'm not even there anymore and you'll walk off with her. Sure you're not my boyfriend I mean who wants to date me anyway? Everyone thinks I'm annoying or don't talk to me. People say words hurt but actions speak louder than words. Yours tell me you were only my friend because you didn't want to be rude. Makes sense. I found that out with a lot of my other 'friends'. Maybe I can have a real friend outside of wattpad. The people I've met here are wonderful. They make me smile then you come back to mind. 😪😪😪 you just haunt me now. I feel pathetic now. Can't I just live in peace? Please? That's all I'm asking. Just one day without heartache.