Inazuma Eleven Big Book Of Randomness 3

Update

Well here I am again talking about you. It doesn't hurt as bad as it did the first few times and I'm not crying yet, I don't think I will cry this time. It's feels like I'm almost free from the curse you put on me. But there are after affects. I still get butterflies when I think about you, I still see you at times, and now a fear of mine has been raised up in me. I never wanted to be hurt so badly that I'd be afraid to fall again. But somehow you managed to do it. I don't know how but you did. Congratulations. Want to destroy something else of mine? Oh there goes the first tear. But now it's also the last. I'm not crying over you anymore, she got you first so congratulations to her. If only you could fix what you turned upside down. The bandage I put on my heart is losing adhesive. It's starting to hurt again. I want to put my heart out there but I'm afraid to end up like this again. I'm actually afraid to open up to people again because of you. I'm back in my awkward social bubble again. I use to look up to you especially since daddy wasn't there but I guess all men are alike. Leave you when you really need them. But at least daddy talks to me. You got a new nuance can't even give it to me. Did she tell you not to? I don't mind if she did. She's your girlfriend. I'm just one of eight pawns ready for you to dispose of. Oh well. Hopefully one day again and really soon I can learn to trust again and maybe leave my bubble again. Until then this is good bye for us. When I go back to the country next month I'm staying for a week then I'm leaving for good. I'm glad I got to meet you. I'll never forget you. And I'll always love you. You were my first love after all. And boy did I fall hard.