Can't take it anymore
I was there. All alone sittin' on a park near my Condo. It was a dark cloudy day. I thought it will rain but then,i was wrong. I'm waiting for the rain to fall but theres no rain or even a single drop. Its just a simple dark cloudy day.
I was in pain that time. I just burried my head through my legs and feel the uncomfortable feeling of pain swallowing the whole part of me. I'm broken again. My heart turns into small pieces again. I'm silently crying again. Then I realised,I should stop crying for Pete's sake I'm at a public area I maybe look like a crazy cry baby here. Its sucks.
So I fixed myself up and started walking towards my condo. Then I've saw this pretty yellow bells on my way home. Its simple and of course,lovely.
"Ah miss. Bawal pong kumuha ng bulaklak jan."suway sa akin ng guard. And then I saw the 'don't pick any flowers'sign. Uh. I immediately throw the lovely yellow bell there and just smiled a bit to the guard. He smiled back. And pick up the yellow bell I just throw a while ago. He gave me the flower and smiled again.
"Ang sabi ko po bawal e nakuha nyo na po so,sa inyo na po. Mukha po kasing gustong gusto nyo eh"He smiled wider. Nginitian ko nalang din sya. Nagpasalamat ako At nagpaalam na akong papasok na sa Condo.
I'm stressed and a bit depressed. Nasaktan nanaman kasi ako. I'm used into it. Call me naive,martyr,stupid or anything else. I will accept that because thats true. I'm weak when it comes to love. So I easily get hurt. I'm a fxckin' insane. I thought I could find that Goddamn Mr.RIGHT of mine. But I failed.
If I were given a chance to turn back time,I will never ever change anything about my past. I will choose to stick in that situation over and over again,because thats me. Thats my life. I love myself. I will never ever regret everything that I've done.
"Oh sh*t" I cussed.
"Oh I'm sorry,di ako nakatingin"I just stared at him. Psh. I'm in pain right now so I guess I'm that numb.
"Hey,I'm sorry miss. Di kita nakita eh"he holds my right arm. I just stared blankly. I can't feel any emotion. Only.... PAIN.
"I'm okey. Bye"thats the only words that i can say. I can't think straight. I really can't. I'm just. Ugh. What the hell? I admit he's really handsome. But to hell with that. I don't care anymore. I'm just numb.
"Ugh. How can I forget you? D*mn you Pirtman" I muttered as I entered the elevator.
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*Vlad's POV*
Why?Why did she came back? I'm okay now. I'm beyond okay.
Why the hell is she came back? To ruin my life again?Hah. She's insane. F*ck.
"Bro, are you with us?"Flade tap my shoulder. Ugh. I spacedout. Sh*t.
"Ah yeah. What is it again? " D*mn.
"Uh. Guys I think someone's not intrested here"F*ck.
"Ah sorry Bro. I'm just.. Ugh. Fine." F*ckinsh*t.
"Whats wrong,dude?"Kent ask. I'm really dead.
"Uh nothing. Just continue. Don't mind me"
"Okey. So, this is our plan. Kevin, you will go here. Sebastian, you're here. You're playing on defense. Make sure that no one can get off you. Get it? Peter will make three here. If anyone is open just shoot. We need to get points here. Be alert. And you Vlad make sure you will get the rebound. We're here to get the championship trophy. Okey go go. Play hard, remember Bocksout" Coach Long said.
