Getting thin

06

When we get upstairs

I ask Emma the question I'd been wondering since we started eating.

"Why did you eat so much?"

Emma smirks and simply says

"I'll show you."

We walk into my bathroom,

that's connected to my bedroom.

She lifts up the toilet seat and gets on her knees.

My mouth drops.

"you puke?"

Emma nods as she ties her hair up.

"But i thought we agreed that we would exercise and restrict!"

I was confused, and hurt.

"We did, but that was before I was going to be sent away to get fat."

Oh.

"How do you think I'm able to have my parents believe I'm getting better?"

That's how she's been losing more weight then me.

"Watch what I do, then do the same. Okay?"

I nod,unable to speak.

She leans towards the toilet

and sticks to fingers in her throat.

Instantly she's vomiting.

I wince at the sound.

I hate puking.

It only takes her 15 seconds,

twice

to get everything out.

She stands.

Wiping her mouth she flushes the toilet\

"You're turn."

I guess just once wouldn't hurt

and I did eat way too much dinner.

After a couple of seconds,

I get on my knees.

She gives me directions,

and at first I gag

after only a second.

"Try again."

The second time I ignore the gagging feeling

and a littler bit comes out.

She hands me my  toothbrush that was on the counter.

"Use the handle of this, It might help."

It did help.

Within a couple seconds I was vomiting.

My eyes water

my throat burns.

It feels like I'm dying.

Emma wants me to do it again but I can't

I shake my head and slump onto the floor.

That was awful.