I want to take a moment to address those that don't like my decisions.
I do care.
Here's the thing.
MY emotions are not bound by the restrictions of what you find ok.
I am a human being that may act irrational.
The way I feel will leak out of me like a pipe with a loose screw
I'm sorry that you don't like who I do
But if you're truly my friend you would set aside the negativity you harbor
For the sake of friendship.
You would look at my decisions with support
Respect what I want
And be mindful of what I don't.
I'm sorry for any pain I caused you.
I always wanted to just make your life easier.
I stuck my neck out and expected you to do the same.
The favors I would do apparently didn't add up in your numbers book
The deeds I did went unappreciated
My respect was not counted for.
We were brothers.
There were moments when I lost faith in myself
You reminded me that no one will ever believe in you as much as you.
That the love you feel inside will have no substitute
That god may open his heart to you and bring upon the right path if you just believe.
But believing was never my strong point.
You invited me to go to church with you
To find a piece that was missing
I wouldn't step foot towards one because I feared I would never find Him
I feared he hate me much like you do now.
I feared that He would take my soul and hand it to the devil.
I was afraid I wouldn't understand.
I have been afraid to have fear.
This message is not a message of hatred in any way
This is to let you know that I will value myself
I will cherish my feelings
I will remember what you have taught me.
But I will never change.
