Pain I Take

CHAPTER 7 - Selfish Spark

Adas's POV

*Sigh* It's good that i'll be staying in the hospital for a while. I'm starting to get sick of school anyways. Time check, it's 7:18 AM *sigh* What to do? What to do? (Looking around)

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My disease. Why did it get so severe? I never imagined it would be that painful. I- I thought I was going to die that moment. What if- what if it happens again? I just don't know if i'll be able to endure it. I'm starting to feel anxious. (Deep breathe) Adas, calm down. Everything is gonna be fine. Just calm down. This is not the right time to worry, especially in a situation wherein i'm the one who's at risk and who's worrying for myself. But. . . but it's just- *cries*

"It's hard. It's SO hard to stay strong.  Who wouldn't be worried if they're in MY place? If someone had this kind of disease, would they be happy? Of course not. Who would be? . . . tsk! My family- they're my strength. I know that, and I think about my family but. . . why is it not enough. When I suffer, they suffer, too. I see them crying and worrying because of me and i can't help thinking about it. Even if they say i'm gonna be okay while their tears are falling from their eyes, i know it's not. It's really hard! (Someone knocked on the door. Adas heard her mother's voice)

"(Opens the door) Adas, sweetie?"

"(Adas wiping off her face)"

"Hey, what's wrong?"

"Uh, nothing."

"Oh Adas. I know what you're thinking. Come here (hugs her). Don't worry. You're okay. It's not gonna happen again."

"Mom, please tell me the truth. Am i really gonna be okay?"

". . . Yes. Everything's alright now."

"Mom?"

"Yes?"

". . . I'm scared. I'm so scared."

"Shhhhhh. You are going to be okay. I promise you that. Remember, you're strong. That's what your father always says, and i believe him."

"(Hugs her mother tight)"

"Here. I brought you a breakfast. I know you're hungry."

"Thank you."

"I'm gonna go, uh, see Doctor Morgan, okay? I think he wants to see me."

"Where's Dad?"

"He already left. Um, you should eat sweetie, okay? And don't get out of the bed. I'll be right back."

"Okay."

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Paula's POV 

(Opens and closes the door. Paula's just standing and in a daze. She knelt to the ground and started crying.)

I heard everything she said. . . and i'm very worried. So worried she might not endure any more pain. Oh Adas. I love you so much sweetie. Please be strong. Please be strong. I know this will be painful, but this will be the last time you'll feel in pain. Once we'll know that your affection to the boy has got something to do with your disease, i'll do the right thing. I'll never let him get near you ever. . . because as long as he stays away from you, you'll never feel pain again. You'll be safe.

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I should see Dr. Morgan.