In love with a pigs heart

Chapter 4: Cheerleaders and Blades.

he bell rings once again. Everyone jumps off their seat like a stampede of zebras. Guess it's lunch time. We walk by the hallway and Meli meets with a blonde girl and thick glasses named Lily. Being the awkward person I am, I greet her. Off we go. Who knew I would make this many 'friends.'

Another tall, blonde hair, green eyed guy handshakes with Chris.Where are all these people coming from? Once again, I face a series of awkwardness till we reach the cafeteria. Off we walk, with Chris, Andrew, Meli and Lily.

"This is huge!" I say in astonishment.

"That's what she said.." Andrew cracks up.

"Shut up." I roll my eyes.

We grabbed our lunches and walked towards an empty table with five seats. Meli slams her plate on the table. "I'm so hungry!" She says with a mouth full of salad. "Good luck on filling yourself up with that tree."Andrew says, making everyone laugh. "Well you can shove that animal in your mouth and eat it like its nothing. Little do you know that a fucking knife made contact with the neck of a chicken in order for you to enjoy. Now go ahead and stuff that flabber of meat in your mouth. Bitch." Damn. I've never seen the other side to her.

I pushed my plate in front of me in disgust of what Meli just described.

"It's the truth." She continues.
"I'll take that!" Andrew reached his arms across the table to take my chicken sandwich.
"The population is to big for everyone to be vegan." Chris says with a mouthful of food.
"Pahhhh-leez! Just another excuse for you carnivores to eat innocent animals" she rolls her eyes back.

As I'm listening to them argue, I excuse myself to the bathroom for no good reason. Just needed a break from all this school crap. I stepped into the bathroom. I look to see a bunch of cheerleaders fixing each others hair and makeup. I hope they're not like those girls in the movies. They all pause to stare at me like a spider is on me.

"Who are you and why are you here?" One of the blonde girls with a large bow on her hair says in a sassy attitude.

"Uhhh... Just need to wash my face." My face turns red as a tomato when they all start to giggle at me.

"Sorry but you can't be here." Another girl next the the blonde hair cheerleader says.
"It won't take a minute, I just need to use the sink."

"Get out!" The blonde girl says.

"No. It's not you're property!"
What the hell did you just do Luna? Didn't anyone warn you not to mess with cheerleading sluts.

"If you don't get out in 10 seconds, you'll be sorry."
"10,9,8..."

I stood standing in front of them with my arms crossed like it's nothing.

One of the girls approached my direction and slapped my cheek. I tried to fight back but there were 10 of them and one of me. The only choice I had was to leave the bathroom. I left the bathroom with a hand on my cheek and a face covered with salted tears. I went back to the table to grab my backpack.
"Luna?"Andrew interrupts Meli and Chris who were still arguing.
The two look up at me.
"Oh my god! What happened?" Meli says in shock.
Without giving a word to Andrew, Meli or Chris I stomp my way out the cafeteria.
"Luna wait!" Chris yells chasing after me. Meli and Andrew fallow.
I run as fast as I can and lose track of where they were. I somehow ended up outside the school yard, crying myself on the mowed grass. I was in so much pain, not physically but emotionally.
I hate this school, I hate these people and most of all I hate myself! Why am I even here! I want to die! Nobody understands me. Nobody knows what I'm going through. I want to jump off a bridge. That's what you get pig heart! Maybe if you were not half pig, you wouldn't have been crying and looking like a dumbass. You're worthless!

I lay my back on the grass with my hands over my eyes. Trying to forget everything. I guess with depression every littlest thing makes you upset. I had the urge to hurt myself. I needed relief from all this pain. I pulled out my sharpener from my pencil case. I looked around to see if I could find anything to unscrew the blades off the sharpener. I took my pencil and removed the eraser, where only the metal that was holding it was left. I bit on it creating a flat, sturdy screw like thing to unscrew the blade. I had the blade out. I lifted my sleeve and began slicing my wrist. My salt tears touched the cuts making it burn, feeling for satisfied.

An hour passed and I decided to go back to class before anyone catches me. My eyes were swollen red and my back was numb. It was the last period, and I had global history. I walked into class. The teacher seemed to not care whether I was late or not.

"LUNA!" I hear three voices at once shout my name. Of course.. It was Meli, Andrew and Chris.

I pretended not to hear them and went to sit at an empty seat by myself. The last thing I wanted to do was to talk to anyone. Amd for the rest of the day, I sat doodling drawing of Nooses , ropes tied to necks and pictures of myself. (Shown on chapter picture)

I went home and put myself to sleep, trying not to think of anything that happened today.
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