In love with a pigs heart

Chapter 5: Someone like me.

This chapter is a bit long. This is my fave chapter so far because this is when all the love and smoochy stuff happen lol.
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It's one thing I learned these days is that you cannot depend on anyone for your happiness. Happiness is a state of mind. Depression kind of wipes that all away. If you know someone who is depressed, please do not try to help them by pointing out how everything in their life is perfect. That's not how it is. Depression is not a disease. I am my own person and half of me has turned against the other half of my true self. Now it's an uncontrollable war.When things interfere with these two sides of me.. Everything gets worse. Sometimes my throat aches because I don't know when this war will end and the only possible solution is to end myself. I'm still recovering. The only thing that is keeping me alive is my aspiration that everything will end. And that the two sides of me will soon sign a truce. As of now.. People only see one side of me. The happy, fun, and smiling Luna.
The fake smiling Luna.
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I'm afraid to go to school. What will I say to Meli? Should I make up a story? It was 6:30 in the morning and I sat on the bed thinking of what to tell them. I'm such a butt face. Why can't I just tell them the truth? I'm afraid they'll judge me for being weak. Ugh. This is harder then I thought. Should I just confront them? You know what? I'll just.. do it and hope that everything is okay.
Maybe if I acted happy, they'll forget about it.
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I took a deep breath and walked into class with a smile on my face, pretending like everything is okay. I sat myself next to Meli, Andrew and Chris.

{{Meli's P.O.V}}

The classroom door creeks open. A bright smiling face appears.

"It's Luna!" I whisper to Chris.

"Should we ask about yesterday?" He whispers back.

"I think it's better to drop it, she looks like she's in a good mood, let's not mess that up."

Luna sits down next to us.

"Hey guys." She whispers in a low voice.

"Yo." "Hey" "Sup"

"Someone looks extra cute today." I say trying to pretend like we forgot about everything. Although she did look nice in the romper she was wearing.

{{Luna's P.O.V}}

"Thanks. So do you." I smile back at her.

Did she really forget about yesterday?

I don't know why but I felt really pissed that they forgot. Do they even care? I'm not trying to be an attention whore or anything but I'm reconsidering everything I thought this morning. Ugh.

{{Andrew's P.O.V}}
I couldn't help but to ask about yesterday.

" So umm.. You okay? From yesterday.." I said while looking down at the pencil at the corner of the table.

I looked up to see Meli opening her eyes wide signaling me to shut up.

She pauses to think for a couple of seconds. Finally she says "Oh um. I'm okay," I can tell that something was really wrong with her but I decided to just leave it alone. "I'd rather not talk about it." She continued.

"No pressure." I said dropping the topic.

Meli changes the topic back to school work.

{{Luna's P.O.V}}
Well. Guess I was wrong.

"Luna.. Come up and draw the inside of an aquatic plant that has been placed in a 3.5% salt solution." Mr.Shepard says while holding the chalk.

Oh god. Everyone's staring at me.