LAST CHAPTER
...SBHB 32...
It seems like everything has come down to this,the moment of truth as what they would say. I desperately let out a sigh just to overcome the awkwardness around us. It was never like this when I was with him It would always be one of those endless cheesiness when we're together but of course the feeling of being happy when I'm with him is evidently strong.
His presence has always brought a comfort to me, a comfort that I had always wanted and yearned when he was away..when he was gone and now that he's right here I cant help but to think twice. It's still here but with this confusing feelings I have with me now.
I snapped out of my trance when he stopped walking and stared at me with those wide eyes.I'm not used to this.I'm not used to seeing him serious since He always wears that bright smile of his.I can't help but feel guilty that I'm the one causing him to be like this.
I followed him intently and sat right next to him. I started swinging back and forth slowly with silence being the only thing that's surrounding us.
"Chanyeol..." I said without looking at him cause I'm afraid that if I did I might break down right now.
He didn't reply and just started to swing slightly, after a few minutes He faced me and and let out and audible "hmm??" I knew He was looking at me with those smile again although I can only see it through my peripheral view.
It took me an hour to contemplate what Iwas going to say next. It was sure hard to say something. Inever did thought we'd reach this state.
"I'm sorry" I managed to say without looking at him.
" It's not your fault..." this time I gazed upon him, It was never his fault. How could he say that?
"It's my fault that I let my guard down, If I have protected you from getting those feelings built up inside you this wouldn't have happened. We would've been still happy... but were still happy right?i could still make you happy." he got up from his seat and kneeled in front of me,holding both of my hands together and laid a quick kiss on it making me as guilty as ever.
i got off my seat and pulled him up to stand " don't be like this yeollie~ah" i hate seeing him sad.it just breaks my heart.
" princess... i love you" he placed a kiss once more and looked straight into my eyes,almost asking me to say the same.i opened my mouth to say something..anything but i cant bring myself to say anything at this moment.i have to talk to him first.i have to clear out this feeling before i answer chanyeol back.so it would be fair for him.
" not now chanyeol.. i just cant " i slowly removed his grasp on my hand and kissed him on his cheek.he breathed deeply and looked at me,understanding what my gesture was about.he pulled me in for a hug and all i could do was bury my face in his chest,tears slowly trickling down my cheeks.
"i understand,go on and talk to him first.you know what you have to do--" he held my chin up and made me look at him.he brushed my tears away using is thumb.he always did understand me.he never got angry,never hated me for anything at all.he understood me well,he knew me so well.
" but promise me one thing.make the right decision... i trust you with all my heart jea joong.i love you so much" he kissed me on my lips and i nodded looking back at those big eyes.his hand circled around my waist,hugging me close to him once again.
"i promise~" i said with my lips quivering,my tears threatening to fall once again but i held it in.
" smile princess~ everything will be fine right? we'll be just fine" he smiled.he can still manage to be confident,hopeful and positive just like always.he wouldn't be chanyeol if he isn't a positive thinker.i pulled off a convincing smile,obeying him.
