...SBHB 27...
i don't know why but i feel like my heart has been stabbed a million times right now, i almost forgot to breathe. kai turned around with a faint smile on his face and i stepped back leaning towards the door,still frozen.i couldn't move and my minds pre-occupied with thoughts and conclusions.
the moment he lifted his gaze towards me,my heartbeat thumped so fast i felt like its going to explode. we stared at each other with wide eyes.no one dared to speak.when i felt a tear drop to my cheeks it snapped me out of my trance and i ran inside.
i heard kai call my name a few times but i didn't look back. i don't want to face him,i cant.not after what i saw.
kai and hanna... they kissed.. right on the lips... and its not just those kisses that only last a few seconds but it was a long one. i locked my door and sunk my self on my bed, i began to cry, the sound of me crying was really loud and i think they heard me.
"jea~ what's happening?? are you alright?" it's chanyeol,who wouldn't know his deep voice.he knocked as if he's gonna break the door down.i didn't answer and began to cry more,as much as i want him to hug and comfort me right now i cant,i don't want him to see me like this.
" jea.. don't be like this" kyungsoo
i tried to compose myself somehow and wiped away my tears.i made my way to the door and made my voice clear.
" I'm really okay,don't worry about me its just that i-i missed my mom and dad " well that was quite a good lie,i hope they bought it.
" are you sure you're really okay??" chanyeol.
" yeah I'm really okay,goodnight yeollie~" it was sad enough that we don't get to say our goodnight's face to face.its really hard to be me.
" goodnight guys~" i added and leaned my ear to the door and heard footsteps.i think they went to their rooms now.mianhe~ I'm making you guys worry to much.i guess i better just sleep this feelings off of me too.i hope it gets better tomorrow.
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its morning.the sun is shining brightly but the emotions are just rushing into me again.i don't want to get up.can't i just lay here all day?? ugh~ even though it killed me to get up i still did.i went downstairs and prayed that i wont get to see him.i don't want our paths to cross,not now.its too early for that.
i checked the surroundings and yeah the coast was clear kai's not around.actually no one was around.i think their still sleeping? i guess they had too much fun celebrating last night.too bad i have to see that little scene last night,i wish i didn't saw it.if i could just not have seen that then i wouldn't be troubled right now.
