Wide Awake-a Josh Ramsay Fanfiction

Chapter 8: Fix Me

Josh's P.O.V.

A week later Hanna was let out of the hospital. She was allowed to decide when she felt she was ready. I told her to meet me at the coffee shop near the hospital. I wanted her to have every option possible open for her right now, if she wants me to stay with her for a while so she doesn't have to be alone, if she wants to stay with her friend Mary and more.

I wait outside of the coffee shop for her for 10 minutes until I hear a voice coming from the left of me.

"Ramsay!" I hear someone yell. I turn to the left and see the face I've been waiting to see again. She looks so healthy and beautiful.

"Babe!" I say as she runs into my arms.
"Oh god I missed you" she says.
"Me too" I say as we walk into the coffee shop. I order our drinks while she finds a seat. Her drink is always the same and I have it memorized. Caramel Latte with extra caramel, half fat and extra milk. I don't quite understand her order but I never question it.

"You look amazing" I say as I hand her the latte.
She laughs "thanks".
"How are you doing?" I ask honestly.
"Better but not perfect. They told me that staying around people that care about me and that I care about would be an excellent choice. They also said that spending a little bit of time alone each day is good for me to collect my thoughts." She twirls her thumbs and looks down at them.
"I completely agree" I say as I take her hands.

Hanna's P.O.V.

"God Josh why do you have to be so dang hot?" I blurt out.
"What?" He chuckles.
"Those eyes, that hair" I say as he flips his blonde and blue hair away from his face.
"Don't even get me started!" He says and I can't hide my blush.

There's a long pause while we drink our coffee and hold hands.

"Josh..." I finally say.
"Yes"
"Uh...would you wanna maybe move in with me? I know we've only really been dating for like a month but I really like you. No Josh, I really love you" I pull my hands away and nervously rub my hands up and down on my lap.
"I thought you'd never ask!" He pipes up and smiles the most adorable smile.
"Can we go back to the apartment and talk?" I ask.
"Yep" we walk out of the coffee shop and to my apartment.

It starts to rain and I shiver. Josh takes off his jacket and wraps it around me. I giggle and thank him. By the time we get back at the apartment we are soaking wet. We change and I throw my hair up into a messy bun. So does Josh and we both laugh. The blue in his hair starts to blend with the blonde making it almost green. His hair is too adorable.

"So, can we talk?" I say.
"Yeah" he says and we sit down "wait can I ask you a question first?"
"Okay" I reply.
"I don't know if this is a good time to bring this up but I wanted to know where the places on you that you don't want me to touch. Yes this is awkward but I would like to know what makes you comfortable and uncomfortable" he says
I appreciate his concern and reply "okay well I would say that anything under my hips but above my mid-thigh is off limits for now and my chest would be off limits too. Is that okay?"
"Sounds good" he smirks and rubs my knee "if I ever make you feel uncomfortable please tell me okay?"
"I will. Thank you for being so understanding"

I grab his hand and we snuggle up in bed while we watch TV. I sit up in bed next to him and kiss him, he seems surprised but not in a bad way. Josh is amazing at kissing, I mean amazing. We lean back to breath and I lean back in first. Josh bites my lip and he pulls back.

"Oh, God I'm so sorry" he looks ashamed.
"Why are you sorry?" I say.
"That was a bad idea"
"I didn't think so" I lean back in and he smiles.

I can feel his tongue piercing in my mouth, it's hot.

He pulls back and I kiss his cheek.

"I'm going to take a shower. Wanna join?" I ask.
"What?" He looks confused.
"I'm just kidding you idiot!" We laugh and I walk toward the bathroom. I peak back around the wall "someday" I say as I bite my lip and head toward the bathroom.

In the shower I think about Josh.

He can fix me. Josh can fix me.

Josh's P.O.V.

While she takes a shower I change into my boxers and a t-shirt and get back into bed.

I love Hanna. She can fix me. Hanna can fix me.

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That one was really long but I wanted to finish it a certain way that made sense. Thanks so much for reading! Don't be afraid to comment questions or criticisms I would actually really appreciate them. Thanks again!