Wide Awake-a Josh Ramsay Fanfiction

Chapter 6: Sunrise

Josh's P.O.V.

I wake up at 4:30AM and noticed that Hanna was curled up around me, her head resting on my chest. I look down and see her beautiful face, I run my fingers through her perfectly wavy hair. Her eyes slowly open and she looks up at me.

"Good morning" she says with a slight smile. She looks tired.
"Hi beautiful" I say "What do you think about going to see the sunset?"
"Sure" she replies.
"Don't get up" I tell her "I'll get some clothes for you"

I grab my sweater from last night and a pair of leggings from her drawer. I hand them to her and I go to the bathroom while she changes. I hear a faint knock on the door.

"Josh?" I hear from the other side.
"Yeah..." I say and open the door.

Hanna runs into my arms and hugs me tight. I'm concerned for her right now.

"Do you still want to go see the sunrise? We can just stay here or go back to bed?" I ask while I look into her eyes.
"I still want to go, Josh, I just wanted to show you how amazing you are. You acted so well last night. Anyone else would have just ran off and thought I was insane." Hanna sighs and looks down at her feet.

I gently lift up her head "Hanna, I love you, I really do. And I want you to know that." She breathes out deeply and kisses me while running her fingers through my hair.
She leans back "I love you too Josh"

We both grin and walk to the bench outside of her condo near a park where we see the sun rising over the buildings. I can still see the fright in her eyes.

"I used to self harm" I blurted out and regretted.
"What?" She turns to look at me.
"I used to do a lot of bad stuff ,Hanna, including drugs and alcohol. I never finished high school and I struggled for a long time with depression, anxiety, bulimia, anorexia and self harm." I say and look away.
"Why are you telling me this?" She says as she grabs my hand tightly.
"I want you to know that you are not alone and that I am here to help you, always" I bite my lip as I start to tear up. I can't cry in front of her.

"Josh, it's okay to cry, it's okay to cry" she says as I lean my forehead on her shoulder.