Drabbles

Alone

For me loneliness has never been a difficult thing to achieve. I've never been very good around people and friendship doesn't come easily to me most of the time. But lately I've come to notice now that my final year before(meaning starting next year I'll be a freshmen) high school comes to a close I've been getting (feeling would be more accurate if I'm honest) more alone in everything I do. It isn't that I don't try to make friends I just don't trust easily and that makes it harder to keep them. They come,they go,lie,pretend and then I'm left alone in the empty room again with nothing but the thoughts in my head that are not so kind to me most of the time. I can be alone as much as I want but sometimes I don't want it. Sometimes I just want someone to hold me and reassure me because in that moment it is what I need. Other times I want to let the loneliness envelope my pathetic being like a soft blanket,to let it put my mind at ease rather than let the quiet get to me. Because my love, sometimes quiet is violent. It leaves you with your awful thoughts until you've gotten lost in them so deeply you can't make it out.( I'm sorry this is such a bummer I wasn't feeling the best but okay now )
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-22-16