Guess I'm still in love with you.
I look at the message from my ex boyfriend, Terrance. Though we broke up two years ago we still kept in touch. Usually just a How's the family and a happy birthday.
Usually I avoid texting him today. The day that use to be our anniversary. If we were still together it would mark five years. It's my fault we broke up. I couldn't trust him and pushed him away. He being the great guy he is waited for me. But I left and left my heart behind with him.
What brought this on?
I have always loved you. I still do.
I sigh. Starring at my phone screen. Not knowing what to say. Should I take him back? He would be mine again and I would never let him go. But what about Chase? In an attempt to get over him I signed up for an online dating site three months ago. I met Chase there and we agreed to meet in person tomorrow. After countless video chats and phone calls. I have grown to like Chase but he isn't Terrance.
Terrance I don't know what to say...
Do you still love me?
I swallow air. I can't do this. This isn't fair. He's not mine anymore.
Terry I always will.
Is there someone else?
Yes.
Do you love him?
No. He's not you.
I'm coming over.
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I wake up to a knock on the door. "Baby? Let me in." I walk to the door and open it up.
There he is. Standing in all his glory. Standing at 6'3 with his dark brown curly hair. It's gotten longer since the last time I seen him. Creamy brown skin and hazel eyes.
"Terry." I sob out. He reaches for me and pulls me into his embrace. Stepping inside while still holding on to me he closes the door with his foot.
"Oh baby girl. I missed you." I wrap my arms and legs around him as he carries us to my bedroom.
"I love you Terry." I squeeze him tight. He stops by my bed. He lifts me up and places a kiss on my forehead. "I love you baby. I never stopped."
I look in his eyes and see nothing but truth. He takes the time to strip out his jacket. "Terry?" I call to him so his eyes focus back on mine. He lifts his hand up to rub my cheek. I lean into his hand.
"I'm so sorry for leaving you." I start crying. "It was all my fault this happened to us."
He puts his finger on my lips to silence me. "Shh. Baby. I don't blame you for anything." He lowers his head to kiss my lips. Pulling up to look in my eyes once again. "I know why you did it. And I wish you would have told me what my mother said but that's okay. I have you now. That's all that matters."
I smile at him. "Terry-" my words get cut off by the sound of a little cry. I get up and rush to my sons room.
Picking him up and rocking him till he calms down. "Nicole?" I hear Terry's voice and turn to face the door where my love stands.
"This is TJ." I tell him then look down at our son again. "He's will turn two next year."
"Does that mean....?" I nod my head to his unspoken question. Rubbing my sleeping baby's head as he sleeps against my shoulder.
"Terrance Alvin Jackson Jr. Just like his daddy." I feel arms wrap around us. I lean into Terry's embrace. "You're not mad at me?"
He shakes his head. "I'm mad at myself. I should have know." His voice sobs.
"Hey baby it's okay. I didn't find out till after I left." I use my hand to rub his face now. "I'm glad you are here now."
He grabs my face in his hands making me look him in the eyes. "I'm never letting you go again. You are mine."
I nod in agreement. "Yours."
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I kinda like this one. What do you think?
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