Perfection: A Jamie Campbell Bower Fanfic

Chapter Six

"What are you going to do?" Aimee asked standing in the doorway to the lounge. I shrugged. "I have no idea. It'd be so much fun to work with them on this movie but I'd have to give up my job and so would you. And Zara, would you stay?" Maybe I was over thinking this and the answer was simpler than I was making it. "Yeah of course I would. I'd just move over here. You know I've been thinking about moving over here anyway," she replied. I sighed. Dammit, I'd forgotten that she wanted to move over here. "I'd totally forgotten about that. What about you Aimee? Would you give up work?" She came and sat on the floor in front of me. "You know it," she replied. I sighed again and leant against the back of the couch. "I don't want to do it, but I don't wanna mess up your opportunity to do this," I knew I'd probably regret not doing it but something told me that it wouldn't work out anyway.

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   "Are you ready to go?" Zara asked. I was in the process of starting my vlog. My mind was still swarming after my decision to not work on City of Ashes. I hadn't told Jamie yet and I wasn't sure how I was going to tell him. We walked out the door and headed towards vidcon. The three of us talking to our cameras. We must've looked crazy, but we were used to it now. My phone rang. It was Jamie. "Hello?' I asked looking at Zara and Aimee. "Have ya made a decision?" He asked. I began shaking and there was a moments silence between us. "I'm sorry but I just can't. Aimee and Zara are keen but I just can't do it. I'm really sorry," my voice began to crack. Aimee came closer and hugged me. Anyone would think I'd just broken up with someone. I heard him sigh. "It's fine. I've got them jobs. I'll come and see you tonight to discuss the finer details," and with that he'd hung up. I was crying now. I felt like I'd just broken up with him. Now I was going to be in a shitty mood for at least half the day. Hoepfully vidcon would be enough to take my mind off everything.

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   There was a knock at the door. I'd had such a good day and now this was happening. Why was I so miserable about saying no to something?  I answered the door and let him inside without saying anything. He followed me into the lounge where Aimee and Zara sat editing their videos. "Hey," Jamie said to them. They looked up from their macbooks. "Hey," they replied in unison. He sat down on the other couch. "I know Laura doesn't want to come and work on set, but do you guys still want too?" I could see them thinking it over. Aimee was the first to answer. "Yeah I do. What would we be doing?" Jamie looked at Zara. "Yeah, what Aimee said," she said watching me walk away. I moved out of their line of sight but stayed where I could hear them. "Um it's just some hair and make up stuff. Nothing major," I heard him say. I couldn't listen to this. I was regretting not taking this opportunity but I couldn't work with him. Not if I wanted a relationship with him. I went and sat in my room. I pulled out my MacBook and began editing some of my videos. I needed something to take my mind away from this.

    There was a knock on my door. "Come in," I called closing my laptop. Jamie entered and sat on the side of my bed. "Are you okay?" He asked grabbing my hand. I nodded and he tilted his head. It was as if he could tell I was lying. "You can be honest with me what's up? What's the real reason why you didn't wanna work with us on City of Ashes?" He asked moving so he was actually sitting next to me on my bed. I sighed. I was hoping he wouldn't ask me this. "It's not that I didn't want too. I really wanted too work with you. But then I thought about how messy things could get if what ever it is we have now turned into a serious relationship." He was playing with my hand now. He looked over at me. "I see where you're coming from," was all he said. I leant my head against his shoulder and he kissed the top of my head. I was so tired that before I knew it, I was asleep.

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   I woke up the next morning and Jamie was gone. I wasn't really surprised. There was a note left on my bedside table. "Sorry, I had an early start today. Talk later xx" Yeah whatever. I seriously doubted I'd hear from him at all today. Not after last night. I got out of bed and walked into the kitchen. "Where's Zara?" I asked Aimee. She shrugged. "I guess she's gone for a run or something," she replied not looking up. She always seemed to disappear when I was wondering where Jamie was.