Forever and Always

Chapter 6 - Why don't you love me?

<pre style="line-height: 21px; white-space: normal; color: #444444; font-size: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;">Elisa's POV 

I ran back and found him Lying unconcious on the ground. 

Oh God! This can't be happening! I immediately took out my cell and called an ambulance. I told the operator that we're in some alley near Dreamer's Paradise and that my boyfriend just got stabbed and was loosing a tremendous amount of blood. 

Someone picked up from the other end and said that an ambulance will be there in 5 minutes and that I should remain calm and try to apply pressure on the wound to stop the bleeding. I quickly hung up and did just that while tears started to fall. 

"Don't you dare die on me Louis! Fight it! We'll get through this together! I'm really sorry..really sorry...it's all my fault..." I said in between tears. 

The ambulance arrived briefly and the peramedics placed him on a stretcher and into the back. I climbed in as well and held his hand through the journey. 

Once in the hospital, he was brought to the ER to be operated. I saw his mom, Jay, sitting on the chairs and I slowly walked up to her and said sorry for everything that has happened and that this was all my fault. 

She stood up and hugged me real tight and didn't let go after a long time. She sat back down and patted the sear next to hers signalling me to sit. I sat and began telling her everything. The police will be here to investigate and i'll be taken in to have my statement recorded. 

I cried after ending the story and said "He's better off without me. This wouldn't have happened if he hadn't wasted his time and effort on me..." 

Jay took my hands and held it in hers. She looked into my eyes and said " My son wouldn't have done that if he doesn't love you. I know he doesn't want to loose you that's why he did his best to protect you. You're not at any fault coz it was his decision to fight for you. I see the way he looks at you Elisa, and trust me, he doesn't look at any other girls like he does with you. It's just filled with so much love it's driving me crazy just by looking at him!" she chuckled. 

"So, you're not mad at me?" I asked. 

"No love! I'm actually glad you entered his life. If it wasn't for you he wouldn't be responsible, caring, trustworthy and his grades would not improve at all! You're a really big influence on him." she smiled tenderly. 

"That's the thing. I don't feel like I deserve him. It's unfair for him." I said.

"Elisa, dear, you love him right?" she asked. I nodded in response. "Everyone feels unworthy all the time. But it takes someone who loves them very much to show them that they are indeed worthy. So don't go around thinking you aren't because for me you are worthy! There wouldn't be another girl I'd approve of! And just so you know, i'm a really huge fan of the both of you, so don't let me down!" she said while giggling.

"Thank You Mrs Tomlinson, really, for everything. I won't let you down. I swear, once everything is over i'll fix up this mess!" I replied with confidence now. 

"I know you will, and don't worry Dear, Boo Bear is a strong lad! He won't let this bring him down. Trust in him." she responded. 

"I will." I said smiling widely. 

Just then the Doctor came out of the operating room. He came towards us and asked if we were Louis' family. We nodded and asked how he was doing.

"We managed to return the blood he lost and also tend to his wound..But, he'll probably be in a coma for a while....I'm really sorry. We did what we could and now it's up to him." he explained and then excused himself. 

Coma? That's impossible right? He has to wake up! I started to hyperventilate and my knees buckled on me. Jay picked me up and sat me on the chairs. "Everything'll be alright, he'll be up in a day or two." she said while patting my back. 

"I think you should probably go home first, freshen up and come back in the morning. I'll watch over him first for tonight." she said. I nodded and stood up to hug her and walked towards the exit. 

I called Zayn and told him everything. He said he'll be here in 10 minutes to pick me up and check on Lou and his mom before we head off. I hung up and began fumbling with my phone and texted the other lads and Caitlin as well. 

10 minutes later.... 

I was sitting on the sidewalk when Zayn's volvo pulled up in the parking lot. 

He got out, hugged me and asked how was I doing. I told him that I was still pretty shaken up and that I should really get home and rest. 

"Yeah I'll send you home, but wait in the car while I go in and see how Lou's mom is holding alright?" he said while walking to the entrance. I climbed in the front and waited. 

He came back 15 minutes later and said "Jay said you can come back tomorrow at noon coz she has to be at work by 1pm." he said while starting the car.

"Alright, noted." I replied tiredly.

The drive home was silent and I was thankful for that. I wasn't really in the mood to talk about anything right now, I just want to rest and be by Lou's side. We reached my house and I was about to open the door of the car when Zayn grabbed my wrist. 

"Hey, I know you don't wanna talk about it but everything'll be alright. Don't blame yourself okay? I know Lou and he loves you dearly, he wouldn't dare leave you alone.." Zayn said softly. "i'm here if you wanna talk okay?" he assured me. 

"Well, I just...before everything else, I just wanna say that I feel really stupid. For not believing in Lou. I mean I know he's not the type to do that and I can't believe that I let my emotions rule over. And secondly, the reason why Lou is lying in bed in that blasted hospital is because I was feeling unworthy and undeserving!" I explain and felt the tears coming down again. 

"Hey..don't cry. Nobody ever wanted this. It's just an accident! Don't go around blaming yourself coz you know damn well who to blame. And that person is not you!" Zayn said and I can see it in his eyes that anger and sadness all mixed in one. 

"Thanks buddy, I guess I have to go in now, or else my parents'll get mad if I don't call in to tell 'em how I'm doing.." I reminded him.

"Any idea when they'll get back?" he asked.

"Nope. They're still busy with their business trip so it'll probably take 'em at least about another month the most." I replied. "Well, goodnight Zayn! Thanks for the ride." I said and kissed him on the cheek before getting out. 

"I'll pick you up tomorrow and bring you to the hospital okay? Be ready by 11 30! Don't be late!" he called back. 

I nodded and waved goodbye. I really love my friends. I don't know what'd I'd do without them. And now I'm really thankful that they didn't move into another country or else I wouldn't be able to cope. 

I took a quick shower and got ready for bed. Tomorrow'll be a good day, I thought positively. He'll wake up soon. 

I slept peacefully and prayed for the best.</pre>