Hold on, Baby. (Thomara)

Dos

Paano mo nga ba talaga malalaman kung mahal mo na ang isang tao? Is it when you see your future together? Is it when you never look past him or her? Ano nga ba talaga ang sukatan ng pagkakakilala mo sa isang tao? Is it about the name? Is it about how many hobbies you can enumerate? Or is it about knowing those lingering thoughts in his or her head, and understanding whatever choices he makes

A tight grip

Mika.

Mugto yung mga mata ko pagkagising. It was unusual na kasabay ko si Ara at katulad ko namumula rin ang mga mata niya, siya kase ang unang naggigising samantalang ako yung pinakamahirap gisingin.

Pain took its toll upon us. Nung nagkatinginan kami, nginitian niya na lamang ako ng kaunti, I could tell she was hurting pero it seems like she was compartmentalizing it perfectly, baka nga kase nakapagpaliwanag na si Thomas. Might as well ask Kim later.

"Daks, luto lang ako ng breakfast ha?" pagpapapaalam niya na tinanguan ko naman agad. Naghanda na rin ako para maligo.

I succumbed to my thoughts the moment I opened the shower. Ano nga kaya ang sikreto nila Jeron at Thomas na sobrang agitated si Je, enough to shout at me?

After 2 months of being together siguro nga hindi pa gaanong deep ang aming relationship, In between trainings and guestings (We both endorse a Growth Supplement and Clothing line) we barely have enough time to listen to each others sentiments

Jeron, Kilala na ba talaga kita?

Ara.

Well I thought the truth would set my priorities straight, yun pala mas lalo lang gugulo.

I could still remember after he said those words last night. Pinakita niya yung iba't ibang intriga na binabato Kay Kuya Axel, na di umano'y parehas sila ng minamahal na babae ni Thom, Si Jeanine. And how popularity got into the both of them (Mema talaga minsan ang media!) But Tom knew too well na kapag ako ang pinakilala niya, It would make no difference kase aloof ako sa social media. I am beyond their watch. Meanwhile, Arra San Agustin has been very vocal about her feelings for Thomas. I still remember the time when she was a guest in The Podium.

Magkasabay kami ni Thom na nanuod noon sa sala ng dorm dahil umulan pagkatapos niyang maghatid ng dinner at ang natatanging channel lang na nacover ng TV namin ay ang SBA Network. You see, The Podium would be the perfect mirror to what the fangirls and chikadoras go to for confirmation. No question was too tough. No artist was to be left unturned. Bihira lang rin ang nagguguest dito na may issues kaakibat ng pangalan, One wrong statement and the social media would be on fire. At nung time na nagguest si Arra, it was after she was spotted sa isang game ng Green Archers at ang haka haka daw dapat may shooting sila that day pero pinili niyang wag sumipot and attended to her 'priorities'

The first few questions went well for her. About lang naman to sa upcoming guestings and mall tours niya at game na game niya namang sinagot yun. But then two minutes before the show's airing would be over.

Tita Kay from The Podium dropped the billion dollar question.

"Are you dating somebody from the DLSU Basketball team?"

Makapigil hiningang moment yun para sa amin ni Thom. Wala kase kaming kaidedeya kung sino sa mga kaibigan namin yun. But I guess I didn't have to look further.

"I actually idolize their point guard, Si Thomas Torres. Pero I doubt naman na it would matter kase marami namang fangirls yun. Haha!"

"Nako Arra I'm sure it would matter to him because you are also every guys dream--"

Inoff ko agad yung tv matapos mapagtanto na may point si Tita K. Ano nga bang laban ko sa kaputian niya at yung mukha pa niyang di makabasag pinggan? Of course I would look like a trash next to her.

"Nako! Buti naman alam niyang point guard ako, most would mistake me for a center, eh." I stifled a laugh. Nako nga naman sobrang yabang. Di ko naman kayang panindigan yung pagseselos ko kaya we ended up cuddling, shaking away all the horrored thoughts of being away from each other.

Despite rationalizing things, alam ko naman na sobrang kumplikado ng sitwasyon namin. What was I supposed to do when they date each other tapos mamemention sa showbiz chika? Plus wala rin akong kawala sa Paparazzi on twitter. I really couldn't understand kung paano hindi nababaliw ang mga Hollywood Stars dito.

Will I bear the pain of holding on to his words?