Broken Hearts & Forgotten Memories // Oliver Sykes [On Hold]

Chapter Ten: I Caught Myself

Title Credit & Song: I Caught Myself by Paramore

*******Ben's Pov************************************* 

"Ah-and you remember that time when um- yeah I went streaking backstage but then Sam was just like 'God fucking damn it Danny! Get over here!' A-and he tackled me! Do-do you remember that Ben?" Danny slurred getting totally smashed, on the edge of blacking out with-in five fucking minutes. James only kept on drinking and gave me a shrug of shoulders while glaring at Dan, as he kept making him spill his beverage. 

"Yes Dan, you've told us this story like 20 damn times with-in the hour and have talked about absolutely nothing else!" I groaned in a shout, making my self heard over the loud vibrating music that rattled everyone's bones who sat next to the speakers; like us dumb asses. 

"Don't be so mean to me Ben." Dan said scrunching his eyebrows," I thought we were best friends." 

"We are but you're far to drunk to understand anything beyond that point so I suggest drinking another bottle so that way you'll just blackout already." I said pointing to the bar and he just sat there surprisingly still. Eh, he'll pass out with in the next 10 minutes tops. 

We decided to come and have a night of fun like usually but since we have a tour starting in two days, we had to put our game face on and try not to be plastered for the first show. For the first time in six years we are doing another collaboration with Bring Me The Horizon again but You Me At Six, shockingly, tagging along as they have the exact same venues as us, but we will all have our own bus. This time around we are going to be pretty up tight on respecting everyone and keeping an eye on each other not wanting any more tragic happenings occurring again. 

Last tour, things fell really out of fucking hand seeing Oliver cheating on Lily twice just because she wanted to extend her job and be a damn knobhead about it, then me growing feelings for Lily and Lily finding out about it and cheated on him spiraling into an addiction for drugs. She couldn't cope anymore and decided to think it was a "great" idea to draw the blade on each wrist and call it quits. Little did she know how much we loved her and have helped her and allow a fresh start. I never ate after that, never slept, guilt eating away at my bones, seeing it was all. My. Fucking. Fault. 

I knew she was in the restroom for over ten minutes, and I heard her cry from my bunk. But what did I do? I let Oliver come in and see sweet, beautiful, Lily gone and a sick, deathly shade of white and just as quickly as he came he left with her in his arms, crying like no end. 

I looked over to the dance floor expecting to see Oliver on the edge with the other BMTH guys grinding with other gals, nope. I scan the tables, even the YMAS one. Not there. Where the fuck is he? 

Brandy, the chick I picked up just 30 minutes ago, attempted to grind on my hips and attach her lips on my neck, her long pesky brown hair getting in my face. I just rolled with it and began to press my mouth into hers, gripping her hips to hear a girl shriek on the other side of the bar, pushing of the orange bimbo. 

"He-" She began to call. 

"I was never going to fuck you, leave." I spat seeing Josh at his table cupping his cheek, pushed against his new girlfriend in the booth, giving Oliver a death glare while he stood next to a slim girl with black shoulder length hair like Lily's making my heartache. 

"Oi! What the fuck was that for?" Josh yelled, standing out of the booth, into Oli's face, his hand brushing against the girls, who had tattoos like Lily. She had the same frame as Lily. 

"Hey I know that girl..." Danny said trailing off. 

"Me too, I met her at the park awhile ago cool chick. What was her name?" James questioned himself. What the hell was I missing out on? I looked back over to booth, biting at my lip rings. 

"You fucking dickhead!" Oliver screeched. 

"Oh yeah Lily! Remember last night Danny? How she wouldn't let us bang her? She deserved to be punished. How she flaunted her sexy ass." James cried, banging his fist on the table. 

"Are you guys saying you raped someone?" My blood boiled at them doing such a thing. No they are just drunk they can't be. Lily's dead they have to be lying. 

"Why the fuck didn't you fucking tell me that Lily was alive?!" He shouted, slamming another punch into Josh's face, keeping his balance. My stomach dropped like steel. 

No. It can't fucking be. 

"Well if you let me fucking explain-" Josh tried to say but Oli didn't give a shit and pounded his fists into him one after another, a ring of people cheering for something that was sick. I saw blood and from all the way over here heard the bone break from his nose my stomach curling in disgust. 

"Oli, stop!" She cried. It was Lily. I knew and kept that voice in my head after all those years. And then she was taken away as instantly as last time. I won't let that happen. 

*****Lily's Pov*********************************** 

Random emotional tears flowed down my eyes, while I got into the passenger side of my car tossing my keys into Oliver's lap. Sobs kept getting ripped from my throat and demanded to be released in front of this person I met only 15 minutes ago. 

"Hey, Lily? Do you want to go home? Or.." He began trailing off. I fiercely shook my head. 

"I'm SO s-sorry for putting all this weight on you. I don't even know you or-" 

"You don't know me?" He said, his voice cracking. 

"I'm sorry again if you are a high school sweetheart or long lost friend or even my fucking brother. I woke up six years ago alone and lost all my past memories. I'm sorry that I can't remember you." My heart ached. I felt guilty that this person looked so distraught at how I don't know them. 

"Who are you? I mean if I knew you-who were you." 

"I was your boyfriend. But my full names Oliver Sykes I'm the-" Gosh I'm an idiot why didn't I see before. 

"Singer for Bring Me The Horizon. Oh my gosh who was I? I mean I love you guys music as well as-" My throat tightened before I was able to mention the second band, recollections of last night rolling through," I-i guess you can say I used to like A.A." I said softly, trying to keep the trembling in my throat under control. 

"Hey it's okay and I'm very pleased you like our music and not all that One Direction and JB crap. Great lads but their music is in my eyes shit." He laughed softly turning into the driveway of a house I have never seen. 

"Ugh, Anna listens to that shit and thinks she'll bang that 19 year old someday. Rather sick since she's 8 years older. So um, where are we?" I asked getting out of the car, but thankful Oliver's taken be somewhere where terrible memories haven't been. 

"My home. Where lots of magic happens. Well come on in my lady and lets make memories all over again." I smiled at the comment, seeing as he's such a gentleman. I wonder if that's why I was attracted to him. 

"Hey Oli." I called out to him looking at the spacious area. 

"Yes m'darling." He smirked, popping behind the corner he hid behind in the first place. 

"You being a gentleman. Was that what attracted me to you in the first place? If so it'd be so easy for you to call me your girlfriend again." I smiled at him, enjoying the amazing moment. Oliver began to laugh, tears coming out of the corners of his eyes. 

"I was such an asshole to you through out Kindergarten to fucking high school. I'm now looking back at those moments and glad that you don't remember them." He chuckled as the doorbell rang. Seeing as I was close to it I instinctively answered it. 

"I'll never see how the gentleman could be such and ignorant bastard then," I said pulling the door open. 

"Hey it's you again," A drunk Danny said pulling me into a hot kiss, trying to shove his tongue down my throat as I cried out in fear, tears streaming heavily over my cheeks.