overly-awkward

chapter 3

I barely talked to anyone today, and it was only the first day back. I should really step out of my small little bubble.

The three of us met up at our usual spot. Which was unusually, outside the toilet. It was quite difficult to spot each other, due to the influx of students going in and out of the toilet, but we succeeded.

Me, Cal and Nicole.

Oh, I almost forgot to include Brand. My bad. 4 people.

I need to get to know him better, but it is awkward. I am awkward.

The only thing I knew of him is that he is close to Benjamin. That's all.

That reminds me. Have I introduced Benjamin?

Well, he is hot. Have you seen those depths of his eyes, attractiveness of his smirk or even his perfect, sharp jawline?

No you haven't. If you did, I bet you will fall head over heels for him.

He is the only exception which in my opinion, I do not mind talking to. However, the realistic part of me knows that he wouldn't even set his eyes on me, due to the amount of girls that practically offer themselves to him everyday.

Oh and we have known each other since middle school.

Correction.

Only I have known him since middle school. We have never talked before. Only once or twice. We were in the same group for English once.

I forgot when it was.

Actually, no. It was during Grade 6.

3 years 6 months ago.

15 March.

For 6 whole weeks.

Probably it was because I kept envisioning  the same moment over and over again in the past that I remember even the smallest detail.

There was a time when I was just crazy over him. Till an extend where I would jot down every single detail in a notebook I called 'Ben's notes'.

However, after a while of writing almost the same thing everyday, I gave up.

I cringe at myself for my stalker-ish behaviour. Guess it's because I'm just a closed up individual.

However, I still stand by what I said since middle school. He is undeniably hot.

However, I am no longer crazy over him, I guess it has worn off through the years.

I still can't get over the fact that he talked to me first. He took the initiative!

What if he really likes me?

I mentally deadpanned myself. Who knew just how many times I had repeated this in my head. I should really stop.

Also, to justify this, I haven't seen him for the rest of today, so it must have been just wishful thinking.

"Hello? Earth to Michelle, you hear me?" someone snapped her fingers, and I snapped out of my daze.

Nicole gave me a weird look. So did everyone else.