BROKEN HEARTED.
I woke up in his arms. My safe zone. My paradise. My true home.
I got up but I wasn't trying to be quiet like I usually do. I was actually trying to make noise so that Nat would wake up and I could kiss him. Sadly he didn't wake up but I didn't hesitate from kissing him. It was 7:30am. Even if he refused to wake up now, he had to wake up in half an hour because we were finally filming the movie. Just under half of it was filmed in London. The only thing that terrified me is that now Selena is filming with us.
The scenes that we're filming today are the scenes at the very beginning of the movie, which means that Nat and I are not together, and he is supposedly dating Selena and stuff. There is a part where he makes out with her but I know that he has to do it and he has no choice so I'm fine about that. On the bright side, Eliz is now 3 months pregnant and believe me, her mothering instincts are kicking in.
I woke Nat up at 8am and made him some breakfast. After eating together, we got dressed and off we went to the beach. We drove to the beach because that's where the first scene of the movie is. Supposedly, Nat and Selena are on the beach together and I'm there with my sister. We bump into each other and start talking. This is when Selena comes, sees he's talking to another girl and comes towards him and makes out with him in front of me (trying to make me jealous) filming ends at 4pm because we want the scenes to have a lot of natural sunlight and at 5 it's not as bright.
We drove to the beach and went into our dressing rooms (actually is was just a small cabin by the beech) I got my hair and makeup done and it was time to film. A few hours after filming the first part of the first scene, it was time. I was gonna have to stare at Selena while kissing Nat. I want gonna be a butch about it because I love him and I know he loves me, but I just felt a little empty. You know. Even though he was mine, a small voice in my head told me that she could easily make him fall in love with her. The truth is, Selena is a genuine, nice person but because she obviously has feelings for Nat, she seems threatening in my eyes. I stood there. Saying my lines to him. Him saying his lines to me. And it just happened. She walked towards him and started making out with him. While doing this, she looked at me, as if marking her territory. My heart dropped to my feet. My face turned as pale as a ghost. I was empty.
It was finally 4pm and we got to go home. I got my stuff and I was ready to go when I heard a knock on my door. It was Selena.
Selena: Leaving so soon.
Anna: It's 4. The director said the shoot is over.
Selena: Did you like the kiss.
Anna: What kiss.
Selena: The kiss with me and Nat. You know it wasn't his best. He could've used a little more tongue.
Anna: If you came in here to try showing off your little kiss, stop. Because at the end of the day he comes home with me. He's my boyfriend.
Selena: Maybe not for long.
Anna: Are you threatening me.
Selena: No I'm just warning you about what your about to see.
She handed me a phone a I pressed the play button to a video that was on the screen. It was Nat in his dressing room. He wasn't alone. Selena was there, and they were kissing. No. That would be an understatement. They were full on making out.
Anna: Why are you showing me this?
I tried to squeeze the words out without showing the fact that I was crying.
Selena: I just thought you should know. I didn't want to be a bad friend.
Anna: ARE YOU SERIOUS! ARE YOU THAT FUCKING INSECURE THAT YOU HAVE TO GO MAKE OUT WITH OTHER PEOPLES BOYFRIEND TO PROVE YOUR WORTH?! LISTEN TO ME! IF YOU THINK YOU'RE PROVING SOME POINT ABOUT NAT THEN JUST KNOW YOU'RE NOT! THE ONLY THING YOU'RE PROVING IS THAT YOU'RE A SLUT! GO TO HELL!
I stormed out of the room with no regrets to what I had just said. I immediately stormed into Nat's dressing room but he wasn't there. I looked at my phone and saw a text.
From Nat😍❤️
Hey babe, I'm in the car waiting for you xx
Just looking at that message made me so angry. I had mixed emotions. A part of me was angry but then I was also just heart broken and lost. I felt so worthless.
I walked into the car. A tear streaming down my face. Once I entered the car Nat looked at me and tried hugging me.
Anna: Don't touch me.
Nat: What - Why?
Anna: Dint act dumb. You know perfectly well why.
Nat: Anna. She didn't show you...
Anna: Yes. She did. How could you?
Nat: Anna I swear I didn't want to. Please believe me.
Anna: Didn't want to? That's your excuse. You didn't want to... But you did it.
Nat: I didn't.
Anna: What the fuck do you mean, you didn't? I saw a video! Why are you lying to me?!
Nat: Anna... Please
I got out of the care and ran away. I called Eliz to come and pick me up.
Eliz; Hello? Anna?
I sniffed a few times to keep the tears from coming out.
Anna: Eliz. I need you to pick me up.
Eliz: Anna? What's wrong? Where's Nat?
Anna: I-I'll explain when you come.
I hand up with letting her reply. I sat on the sand and cried my eyes out. After around 6 minutes, I got up to walk towards the road for Eliz to pick me up.
Everything happened so fast. I thought the road was clear but it wasn't. My eyes were blurred from the tears and I couldn't see. My whole life flashed before my eyes. First the good moments and then all of the bad ones. My body felt numb. The last thing I remember was the cold concrete scraping my body, the cloudy sight of Eliz over me with her hands over her mouth and the ambulance sirens.
After all,some people are not loyal to you, they are loyal to their need for you. When their need ends, so does their loyalty.
