THE STORY OF US

Separation

  Author Pov

They were left alone and they were awkward for  each other since what had happened last night.

   Jae...let's be open minded of the fact that there's no us after all."

Jeanne opened up after a soffucating silence.

  What about last night,

what was that be?" He uttered.

       " It was a ....",she couldn't say that it was a mistake because in her heart she felt they both did it by their free will."it doesn't matter,we're both adult and we both know that you haven't forced me." There's a hint of pain in her voice.

   "Jeanne,let's try it... I will be a redponsible boyfriend for you even it's long distance affair. As long as you'll say that you care for me."

 " It can't be easy as what you're trying to convinced me. Jea, we're in the different world.I can't be with you. You don't belong to me too. If I'll tell you now that I loved you,it doesn't change the fact that we could not be together." She could not hold the tears that making its way down her face.

  Jaejoong tried to hug her but she turned her back so that she could hide the sob she liked to gave away.

  "Jeanne please don't throw away the good memories that we shared for the past weeks and what happened last night was so important to me."

  "There's no future in us,Jae. I don't want to ruin your life and your career. That feelings we shared will gone if time comes and we can move on."

   "What... what...if..."he was stammering. Jeanne sense it.

        "Don't worry about what had happened... not all couple to have sex made the woman to get pregnant. Not your fault only that we haven't prevented it."

      "No...no,I'm responsible  to that." He turned her to face him," What I'm gonna do to make you trust me and find a way to your heart to give us a chance. If it will not work after that,

that will be the time to decide."He was also in tears this time. Begging for a chance. They stared to each other for moment. They can't decide thru their minds,let their heart decide and so be it.

       Slowly their faces get nearer as his lips touch hers in a featherly kiss. Then it's not enough she moan for a response of his touched, pulling his head to held the kiss.

With a demanding thrust his tongue made it's way to hers. Again, as their  bodies entwined,another sweet memories had happened.

   Jaejoong POV

   As I moved my arms wondering and looking something that I want feel and touch. It was not there anymore.I grasp the cloth that spread to my bed.I'm alone. She was gone.I can't go back to sleep without thinking the things about us. I will hold to the feelings  we have now. She confessed her love to me as I whispered my love for her. She doesn't like to say goodbyes. As she's pertaining that word when she let her husband go. She had a trauma of that word. It was a great impact to her of letting go the one that you cared too much.

   So that's why,she'd  prefer to say take care and God bless when we parted ways.I know she could wait for me.I promised to be truthful and thoughtful to her.

God knows when and where this relationship of ours were lead us.

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     " JYJ fighting.....!"as we step to the flat form for our intro song. This is our third night in Taiwan. It's so tiring but we have to double our energy to bring happiness to our fans. But inside of me is burning of emptiness. This morning was Jeanne's flight back to her country.Last night we had a heart to heart talk in skype with Junsu and Yuchun. She opened up her secret to them.Asking of forgiveness that the two can't defy. They cried each other and I can't help but shared their sorrow as well. But its too hard for me as well as she talk to me even in front of my members....Aisshh...that woman have no pity on me.... she let my friends laughed at my loneliness?"

  "Jaejoong-ah, be sure to feed this two every time you're free together,huh? They're my look out so don't  get wrong..." She spoke to me bluntly.

    In the end..."We will not expect to much of this relationship...if what the time will lead us,let us open to each other. No matter come what may, bad or good as long as we are open to each other,we should accept whole heartedly.  All I ask with you and I could promise too no matter what...we will stay as friend...okay?" She smiled as the tears streaming down her cheeks...and whispered,
take care...always...
I love you....From now on I'll always praying for you and your friends....
see you in my deams...."
   And now as I sing my solo,"For you it's Separation...for me it's Waiting for....",I can't help myself to cry as I seeing her cries too. I felt that I'm useless,

boyfriend after all. But no,I doing this because she wanted me to do.

I love her so much that I can't stop the tears flowing and create a sob between each  words of my song.

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I am in a hurry to end this cause I don't have a time after this month.

    I hope you're having a good time for reading this stuff.  Thank you and God bless.