Secrets and lies.

Part 13:Mixed Feelings

Four Days Later
It was 2 am on Tuesday morning. The morning after G had left for Europe With Madison. I heard a beating on my door. I was already awake because I couldn't sleep so I went to open it. And tell me why I see Shawn in a flannel and skinny jeans. Which is what he would always wear. And yet everytime he still looked sexy in it. He had a duffle bag on his arm and he was sweating and it looked like he was upset. His face was Gorgeous. And his eyes were sparkling Hazel. "Hey." He said out of breath. "Hey Shawn. Um what are you doing here?" I said rubbing my eyes. " Can I come in?" He said looking around. "Um...Yeah Sure...is everything okay?" I asked confused. "Yeah...yeah I just...I...I um...I-" he said really fast and stuttering. "I broke up with my girlfriend. And I left her house and I need a place to stay. You were the first person I thought of. I thought about staying at a hotel but I don't have that much money right now. And I you told me that if I ever needed anything I could come. That still applies right?" "Yeah, um...yeah of course." I said smiling. It was so hard to look at him in his face and have a normal conversation. But after everything, he was one of my closest friends ever. The last time I saw Shawn is when me and G had just started talking in a relationship way. That was like 8 months ago. Shawn was always in the back of my mind but these past few months that I've spent with G, I haven't thought not one bit about him. "So, I heard you and G, Huh?" He said smiling. "Yep, that's my boyfriend." I said smirking. I could tell he was getting jealous. "So anyways how have you been?" He said sitting at the bar. "Great. You want something to drink? And What about you?Hows the music going?" I said smiling.
"No I'm good, and I'm Doing great too, besides the fact that I found my girlfriend was cheating on me a few hours ago." "Doesn't feel very good does it?" I said pouring myself a cup of orange juice. "Look Y/n I don't know how many times I apologized for hurting you. I know that apologies will never be enough. But the way that you made me feel, well, I've NEVER felt like that with anyone else. And I can't believe I through it all away for someone like Katrina. It was the worse mistake of my entire life to even think about hurting you. I'm sorry Y/n." He said staring at me with those dreamy crystal hazel eyes. "I know you are. And I'm still trying to forgive you. It was a long time ago. And I understand. I still love you. Just not in that way anymore. I'm in love with G. He was there with me through everything. Even when it was about you. I miss our relationship, but we both know that we can't go back in time an change the way things happened. No matter how hard we try. We can't." I said caressing his face. "I know that and I still love you Y/n. I know that I can't change the past but There were still memories made and those memories will never go away. I was already planning on breaking things off with Katrina for a while before I found out. Because I can't stop thinking about you. You're all I think about. It's been so hard these past few months. I've missed you so much. You have no idea." He said quietly. "Shawn, look I love you too, but I don't see where things conversation is even taking us. I'm going to go to bed and we'll talk more about this In the morning." He spun me around and pulled me closer to him. To where his face was in mine. "Y/n I will never stop loving you. Ever." "I know Shawn. I'm going to bed. Like I said we'll talk about this in the morni-" He kissed me with passion that I've never felt before with anyone. I pushed him off, but then i pulled him back and I kissed him back. I knew I was doing something wrong but it felt like it was supposed to happen.