Eat Me

Chapter 13: Empty

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Elena woke up groggily feeling like she had just been hit by a bus. Actually maybe getting hit by a bus might have hurt even less. Her brown eyes opened fully as she looked around and realize that she wasn't in her room. She wasn't in Damon's room. She was at a hospital. That was the only explanation for the ugly hospital garb that she was wearing and all the wires connected to her that were making her feel like an extra in Wall-E.

Elena let out a choked sob as she remembered what happened. She had been driving home from work, got distracted and she had hit another car. Or the other car had hit her, she wasn't sure. Her entire body felt numb as panic entered her system. Was there any permanent damage? Had she hurt anyone? She froze. The baby. Her baby. The baby that she wasn't even sure that she wanted.

She touched her belly, but it didn't feel like anything strange had happened. It just felt wobbly and tender. Elena gulped, she needed someone to talk to her. "Hello?" she tried to croak out. "Hello, is somebody there."

The door burst open as her family and Damon came bursting in like firefighters, she could hear them talking excitedly all at once, though Elena had no idea what they were saying.

"Give her space to breathe, guys." A short, red headed nurse said as she tried to take her pulse. "Deep breaths, honey you gave us quite a scare."

After annoyingly being checked by the nurse for a few minutes, Elena was finally left alone with her family and boyfriend, she couldn't believe that Damon and her parents were even in the same room together, even Katherine look sickly.

"Are you ok, honey?" Jenna asked as she started fluffing her pillows. "You look pale, do you want water or-"

"No," Elena said sharply as she looked around. "I want to know what happened. Did I hurt anyone?"

"Well, your car is a total mess," Katherine said in fake cheerfulness when no one said anything. "But good news is, that the other driver wasn't hurt at all and Daddy already paid him off to have his car fixed. You have a broken wrist, but the good news is that it's only going to take a few weeks to-"

"That's not what I meant, Katherine and you know it." Elena said sharply losing her temper as she looked around. "Did I lose it? Did I lose the baby?"

"You did," Alaric said. "You suffered the most impact Elena, you even have a mild concussion and some bad scratches, and babies in the first trimesters are delicate so-"

Elena ignored everything that Alaric had said. There was only one thing that matter. She had lost the baby. It was her fault. She was a terrible person. Elena choked on her tears, there were a million things that she wanted to say, though she couldn't say them.

She looked at Damon, who still hadn't said anything. "Well, I hope all of you are happy," Elena said lashing out at them. "You wanted to get rid of this baby so much. Congrats, you got your wish."

Katherine flushed. "Elena, that's not fair-"

"I would like to speak to my boyfriend," Elena said coldly. "Alone."

While her parents and Katherine left the room, Elena turned to Damon. There were so many things that she was feeling sadness. Hurt. Anger. Angry at herself, angry at him. Angry at everything.

"Well?" Elena demanded. "Aren't you going to say anything? Or are we just going to sit here and not say anything."

"I'm sorry," Damon finally said as he squeezed her hand. "I'm sorry, that you're going through this. I don't know what else to say, Elena. I especially don't know what to say except you're so angry."

"You're right." Elena said. "I'm angry at myself, at both of us, at the world. You and everyone else decided what was going to happen. I have an abortion and then everything returns to normal, you didn't let me decide. But I guess that doesn't matter anymore."

Damon frowned. "I never told you what to do."

"Yeah, but you didn't give me a choice," Elena choked out. "For you, it was an easy way out, what about me? I was actually carrying it and a part of me wanted it gone, and now-"she burst into loud sobs.

Damon patted her back. "Elena, I'm so sorry, if there is anything that I can do-"

"There is," Elena gulped as she looked at him. He had been her love. Her first love. "I need time, to think, to heal . . . and I need to do it alone."

Damon looked perplexed. "Are you breaking up with me?"

She slowly nodded. "I think it's for the best. I need to be free, Damon and I need to remake my life without you. I need to find myself first."

Damon abruptly stood up as he looked detached. "Well, don't let me stand in your way."

Silas walked into The Woods thirty minutes after Amara, he hadn't meant to be late but his bio study group had ran late and Silas had been forced to stay if he wanted to pass. The Woods was filled with the usual crowd, though Silas was surprise that Tessa wasn't even trying to flirt with him, in fact she was actually leaving early. Perfect.

He frowned when he saw Amara sitting on a log drinking from a red cup like there was no tomorrow. She had a droopy, lazy smile on her face and it didn't take a genius to notice that she was drunk.

"Amara," Silas took the cup from her. "Amara, hey look at me, how many of these have you drank."

Amara shrugged. "I don't know," she giggled. "Tessa has been so sweet bringing them to me. Where is Tessa anyway? What took you so long, oh pretty stars?"

Silas let out a silent groan as he helped Amara up, though even her feet were wobbling. "Come on, I'm taking you back to your dorm."

"Ok," thankfully Amara didn't protest too much as she quietly sang "Jingle bells" all to herself.

"Wait," Amara looked around. "This isn't my room."

"No, it's mine." Silas admitted as he closed the door. "I don't want to run into Tessa."

"Won't we get in trouble?"

"Nah, just be quiet," Silas noticed that Amara was quickly falling asleep. He handed her a pillow. "Here, don't hit your head."

She nodded as she placed down the pillow. Amara quickly closed her eyes as she fell asleep. She had no idea what had made her so sleepy in the first place. One good thing had come out of it though. She got to spend the evening with Silas.

"I'm going, Mom!" Katherine said to her mother as she grabbed her purse the following Sunday. She was heading to the Miss Mystic Falls meeting to take Elena's place. She looked over her shoulder and saw that Elena's bedroom door was firmly close. Ever since she moved back home a few days ago, Elena spent most of her time, locked up in her room. She had been so moody and angry that to be honest, Katherine had avoided her.

Katherine shook her head as she got into her car and headed towards the Lockwood's where Carol Lockwood was having the informational lunch meeting. Katherine couldn't help, but feel excited.

She walked inside and saw that the entire entrance was decorated with pink balloons and Carol herself was greeting people at the door. "Katherine, welcome," Carol said. "How are your sisters?"

Katherine responded with a simple, "Fine." As she headed inside. There were only ten girls competing for the Miss Mystic Falls, but they were all pretty, poise, not mention at will backstabbing bitches.

Katherine forced herself not to look in the direction of the tea sandwiches and cookies and instead focused her attention on Carol who had positioned herself at the front of the room.

"Welcome ladies," Carol said. "This will be a short meeting, I promise. Every one of you has been chosen to represent our community in the Miss Mystic Falls competition. You will be judged on your community values, your goals, and of course grace. Please note that you will need an appropriate dress and an escort that is all. Please use this time to mingle and get to know your future friends!