alleyway ➳ a yoonseok one shot.

7:19am on july 13th

Yoongi left a couple days after that.

He left a letter saying exactly this:

Dear Hoseok,

By the time you are reading this, you will notice that I am gone. I have packed all of my things up and left. Thankfully, I will no longer be a nuisance to you anymore.

I'm not sure where I'm headed and I'm not very sure if I'll ever return but I decided that before I leave you, I will give you an explanation for those couple of nights that you've seen me in the alleyway either getting beat up or about to get beat up.

The man that you saved me from was my father. Before bumping into you, I came out to him. I told him that I was gay, knowing that he didn't approve of my sexuality. I figured that he was going to kick me out so I had a bag prepared. But I didn't expect him to actually hurt me for it. 

My dad began beating me up so I took my bag and ran off, not expecting him to follow me. But when I bumped into you and he appeared, I knew that he might actually seriously hurt me so that's why I didn't apologize for bumping into you. Normally, I would've.

So, the next morning I decided to help you out. The reason why I didn't speak was because I was in complete shock at my father's actions. (And the fact that you were cuter than I expected.) 

That one time when you asked if I was okay, I wasn't. My dad started spreading rumors about me, he outed me out to my entire family and now, they all hate my fucking guts.

Yes, I did steal the rent money from those guys. But I don't think stealing for someone who had been so kind to you is necessarily a crime. I think that it was worth living these few months with you.

And now finally, I am going to talk about our kiss. 

Let me get one thing clear here, I did not kiss you because I pitied you. I kissed you because I wanted to. Because I've liked you for a while now. 

When you brought that girl home a while ago is when I realized I liked you. I was so angry at the fact you liked her and not me, I cried myself to sleep. I'm assuming that you like me too by the way you kissed me back. I was so frightened you didn't but you did afterall.

I know you like me a lot and I feel the same but I need a little time alone after what's happened to me over the past year and I'm hoping that you can understand that. I hope you can understand me. 

Thank you for being a home to me. 

I love you.

Your friend, 

Min Yoongi.

Hoseok's memorized it by now. He's downed at least eight beers today and smoked thirteen times today. He also hasn't slept properly in eight days. This is his eighth beer and thirteenth cigarette. If that doesn't kill him, then he's pretty sure loneliness will.