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THE WORST THING TO HAPPEN IN MY LIFE

Date written: May 16, 2016
Time: 11:41 PM

Okay..
So.......
Today.....
Has been the worst....
It totally sucks....
My older brother just found out about my crush and kept teasing me the whole day...

He keep on saying things like...
"[Crush's nameeeeee]" or "Ayieeeeeee"or "Colleen's heart is beating so fast right now!"

AND THINGS LIKE THAT.
IT SUCKS.
MY GRANDMA IS THERE TOO.
I'M WAY TOO SHY TO EVEN TELL THEM ABOUT MY LOW GRADES,
THEN WHAT ABOUT MY LOVE LIFE?!
OH SCREW IT.
I JUST FOUND OUT HE WAS ACTUALLY LOOKING THROUGH MY MESSENGER.
Well....
I have to admit that I also peek on his Messenger...
BUT I DON'T TEASE HIM EVERYTIME I SEE HE HAVE A LOVE INTEREST.
WHY
WHY DOES HE HAVE TO TEASE ME.
WHY.
YOU KNOW WHAT BRO,
NO NEED TO TEASE ME BECAUSE I WAS JUST BROKEN HEARTED BECAUSE OF [CRUSH'S NAME]
HE REJECTED ME
I DIDN'T CONFESSED TO HIM DIRECTLY,
BUT I KNOW HE WAS ALREADY REJECTED WITH THOSE WORDS.
PLUS HE ALSO SAID TO ME,
HE PMed ME,
OR SHOULD I SAY I PMed HIM FIRST,
THEN ASKED WHO'S HIS CRUSH.
OF COURSE IT HURTS TO KNOW YOUR CRUSH'S CRUSH.
BUT I DIDN'T MIND.
I JUST WANTED TO TEASE HIM.
EVEN THOUGH WE HAVE DIFFERENT GRADES.
HIS GRADE IS 2 YEARS APART FROM MEH.
AND I REGRET IT FOR FALLING FOR HIM.
IT HURTS SO MUCH THAT I HAD A BREAKDOWN AT SCHOOL.
I REMEMBERED HIM REJECTING ME,
I CRIED AT SCHOOL.
MY CLASSMATES SAW IT AND ASKED WHY I WAS CRYING.
I JUST TOLD THEM NOT TO ASK SINCE THEY DIDN'T KNOW....
I ALREADY FELL IN LOVE WITH HIM.
NOT ONLY "LIKE" BUT IT TURNED INTO "LOVE"

I just hope my brother doesn't see this.

OH GOD
I WANT TO GO BACK IN TIME.
I WANT TO CHANGE MY FEELINGS FOR HIM
OH GAWD WHY HIM OF ALL PEOPLE
YEAH SURE I DO HAVE 10 CRUSHES,
BUT HE IS THE ONLY ONE I'M IN LOVE WITH.
I DON'T WHY IN THIS AGE OF MINE,
I'M STILL YOUNG AND I'M ALREADY SUFFERING HEARTBREAK.
OKAY....
BYE
I'M DONE
OU GAWD WELP
HE DOESN'T LIKE ME BACK
MY....
GOTTA MOVE ONE WITH IT.
SUMMER'S ALMOST OVER...
AND I'LL SEE HIS FACE AGAIN.
THEN HE'LL MAKE ME FALL FOR HIM HARDER
OH GOD...
HELP ME
OKAY I'LL STOP RANTING
BYE GUYS

-Colleen