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My Big Brother

Date written: May 17, 2016
Time: 6:34 AM

My big brother isn't affectionate at all.
He always teases me.
He always insults me.
He always hurt me.
What's being a brother about that?
Is he showing me affection by hurting me?
By insulting me?
By teasing me? (And by teasing, he always tease me in a bad way. Like bullying)
Is that what you called being a big brother?
If he'll get married,
will he be a responsible father to his childs?
He didn't even took responsibilities at home,
not even in his family,
nor his sister.
He is a type of brother who is a sadist.
He like hurting other people.
Why?
Because he thought,
that all bad things that happened to him was our parent's fault.
He said that he grew up an irresponsible child because of our parents.
He didn't know ho much my mom is working hard there in Cebu,
he don't know how much pain my grandma has everytime he says she is irresponsible.
Why my grandma?
Why not himself?
He is just so cruel.
He swears...
he swears in the face of my grandparents.
How disrespectful he can be.
I even wished one time I'll move into another house without my big brother.
My grandma even said that she'll leave us here.
I can't accept who my brother is right now,
he isn't the affectionate one I knew when we wee young.
Where is the real big brother I know?
Did he disappeared?
The more he grows, the more he's getting IMMATURE.
Well of course I do know that he still needs playing.
But...
please try to act more mature.
Seriously.
Act more responsible.
Act like big brother.
You don't act like one too
Are you really one?

I'll stop about this. This is just really....really...uh...

-Colleen