Blue's
My world suddenly stopped, my heart beats fast and keeps on sinking. Drowning my whole body to take a seat in this bench placed in front of him. My knees, they aren't strong anymore, my shoulders, they don't cooperate at all. They wanted to surrender. My mind can't process anything. It feels like my own world ended with just a single silence when I entered this house. 'Di ako tumingin sa kabaong niya, 'di ko kaya. Ngayon lang ako nakabisita.
I felt cold air pressing against my shoulder, until it reached my cheeks. It's too cold. I don't know what's happening with me right now, but I suddenly bursted into tears silently.
People were starting to give me cold stares when they saw me break down. But I don't fucking care at all.
I just wanted to cry myself and I did, for almost two hours. Ako lang mag-isa sa loob ng kwarto niya.
Suddenly, his Mom approached me. "Iho, magpahinga ka na." Utos nito sa akin habang hinihimas-himas niya ang likod ko. I becmae oblivious to the fact na ilang oras na pala akong tulala sa harap ng puntod niya, sa puntod ni Terrence.
Bigla ko nalang niyakap si Tita. "Tita, I'm sorry." And then I bursted into tears again. His Mom just continued caressing my back, while I on the other hand kept on crying.
I know that this ain't manly. But I just can't take it anymore. I need to get it all out.
I suddenly heard his Mom cry, "Hindi na natin mababago 'to. Nangyari na." She tried stopping her tears but she cried in front of me.
"If only I can turn back time Tita. If only I can tell him how I feel. I lost the guy who had never even once owned me."
Huli na lahat para sa akin.
I'm sorry Terrence.
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BLUE (boyxboy)(bromance)
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