Don't Forget About Us

Just A New Beginning

Today is the day me and Harry are going out for a coffee together. To talk about things more. 

Am i ready for a relationship? I don't think i am.

Do i want to make things work for Darcy's sake? Of-course. 

Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same. 

I have waited, i got tired, i lost hope and now i have to let him go. 

I don't understand why destiny would let us meet again, knowing that we can never be together. 

Everything is just so messed up. What is the right thing to do? 

* * * * 

I get up and get ready for this meeting with Harry. See how i didn't call it a "date" that's because its not. I have made up my mind. Harry will always be in my life because we have a child together but that doesn't necessarily mean we have to be together, like a couple. Friends maybe but not lovers and i think Harry knows that as well.  

"Darcy sweetie, ready for school?" I ask Darcy as she finishes her breakfast. 

I put my shoes and coat on first before helping put on Darcy's. 

I get Darcy in the car and i drive her to school. 

We arrive at school and i help Darcy out of the car. 

I hold her hand as we walk into the school entrance. 

"Hello Darcy, how are you today?" Mrs Roberts asked. 

"Hello Mrs Roberts" Darcy replied while taking her coat off. 

"Well be good and mummy will pick you up later" I said as i gave her a kiss and cuddle goodbye. 

I walked out of the school and got back into my car. 

* * * *

I have been waiting in this little coffee shop for what seems like hours and Harry still hasn't turned up. Maybe this is some sort of prank. Maybe hes not coming. 

I pick up my bag and just as im putting on my coat i hear the shop door open. I look behind me and standing there is Harry with a bunch of flowers. 

"Sorry im late, had to stop off and get some flowers" Harry said with a smile on his face. 

I take my coat off, put my bag down and sit back down on the chair. 

"Do you want a drink?" Harry asked as the waitress came over.

"sure, ill have a hot chocolate please" I replied. 

Harry ordered and then came and sat down at the table. He sat opposite me, he looked me right in the eyes. 

"So...." Harry said.

Our drinks came and then the waitress left. 

"Harry....i need to tell you something" I said worried. 

"Sure, you can tell me anything" Harry said as he took my hand. 

I moved my hand away and then Harry seemed a little sad. 

"Look, im glad your making an effort with Darcy and everything but i don't think we are going to work. We have been through too much to go back to normal. I need to think about our daughter as well" I said, shyly. 

"I love you Meg and no one can change the way i feel. All i ever wanted to be was your everything. What am i supposed to do when the best part of me was always you?" Harry said as he tried to hold my hand, again.

I held Harry's hand back. 

"We had the right love at the wrong time, Harry you need to learn that sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together. I should never have cared. But i care. I cared a lot, and i still fucking care" I said while a few tears rolled off my face. 

"Can we still be friends?" Harry asked. 

Is he serious? When someone says "Can we still be friends" after a break-up it's like saying "the dog died but can we still keep him?".

But i want this to work, maybe we will be better together being friends. 

"Sure" i say as i wipe my tears. 

We finish our drinks and we give each other a hug. I can feel his heartbeat through his clothes and im pretty sure he can feel mine. Why does he make me feel like this....like im the bad one. For fuck sake, i love this guy so much its killing me. I want us to be together but i know it will never work, i know i will end up getting hurt again because i can't give him what he needs. There is a world full of people but i cant stop thinking about him.

 Little does he know how im breaking inside. 

Me and Harry let go of each other and then go to our separate cars. 

I get in my car and Harry comes rushing over to my car door. 

"When can i see Darcy again?" He asks. 

"Ill call you" I reply while closing my car door and starting up the car. 

I drive off and i look in the rear-view mirror and see Harry standing there wiping his eyes with his t-shirt. 

* * * *

I picked up Darcy from school and its now 8pm. 

"Bed time Darcy" I said as i get her into her pjs. 

"Do you want to sleep in mummy's bed tonight?" I asked Darcy.

"Yes please" Darcy replied while holding my hand. 

Me and Darcy got into my bed and i laid there cuddling her. 

This small tiny human was my daughter, my flesh and blood. A mini Harry. 

I laid there, my arms wrapped around my daughter and started to cry while my baby slept in my arms. 

I felt broken, i know ill never be the girl for Harry.

When i look at Harry a thousand feelings immediately come into my mind, some good and some bad.

This could be the start of something new. 

Never give up. There is no such thing as an ending. Just a new beginning.