Lost in My Mind

Chapter 1: Lost

After almost losing my dad, I thought I finally had Amy back, well I did but a disaster from our, well my past, has come back. Sabrina, some chick we met at camp one year. To Amy she was so sweet, but the moment Amy would be gone she was causing problems with me, as if to try and get rid of me. She has never liked what I have with Amy and last night just proved it more to me.
      I just wished I could lay here all day, last night was awful. Even with Amy saying nothing could come between us, I was still scared Sabrina might. Amy meant the world to me and I couldn't lose her, I just got her back.
        "Knock, knock"
    Who could that be I never invited anyone over, I thought to myself.
"Coming," I yelled as I slide out of bed. I walked to the door almost dreading who I'd see. I cracked the door open, only to find Amy standing there. She was so beautiful, wait did I really just think that. I got caught up following every curve of her body.
"Karma?" She said snapping me back into reality.
"Hey, what's up?" I finally managed to say, I hope she didn't see me staring.
"I came to see you, your my best friend of course." She smiled, God I loved that smile, it melted me into a big gooey puddle of....woah what am I thinking. I really don't know what going on with me lately.
"Oh duh! Anything planned for the day?" I said looking away
"Nothing, but come and sit with my best friend" she smiled "Karma? Are you okay?"
I got lost staring out the window and almost missed what she had said, but those last three words snapped me back.
"Ya, I'm fine"
"Are you sure?" She questioned me with those puppy dog eyes that I loved so much.
"Ya I promise I'm ok, if I wasn't you know I'd tell you," I wasn't though, my heads so confused lately and I don't know what I'm feeling.
                Then it hit me..Omg! No! This can't be happening. I have feelings for Amy!! What am I gonna do, I rejected her, and how do I know if these are real. Maybe if I talk with Shane he could help. I break from my thoughts to find Amy sitting on the edge of my bed.
"You looked lost there for a second," she laughed, not some annoying laugh but this perfectly adorable laugh
"Sorry, was lost in my own brain I guess," I smiled at her
"Well how about we both get lost and have a Netflix kind of day" we both looked at each other and smirked, I'm so glad I have her back.

We spent the whole day watching movies and tv shows. From documentaries to comedy to late night tv shows, we watched it all. We watched so many I can't count, in too of that I can't tell you what a single once was about. She watched what was on and I watched her. As we laid there on my bed I was lost, not lost in my head this time, but lost in her. I was staring and I was hoping she hadn't noticed. Tomorrow I really had to talk to Shane so good thing we have school.
"Hey, Karma do you care if I stay?"
"Of course I don't care, your always welcome to stay with me."
"Yay!"
" I'm gonna go grab some food real quick, cause I'm starving, we been her all day, want anything?"
"Yes! Foods my life haha"
"What would you like?"
"Anything you bring me is fine"
"Ok I'll be right back," I said walking out the door. I guided my way through the house. It wasn't quite dark yet it was only, 6pm. We had spend the whole day in bed doing nothing but watching Netflix and well, staring at her. I searched the kitchen finding a box of donuts, Amy will love these. I grabbed the donuts and some sodas for us and made my way back upstairs.
"Here ya go," I walked in handing her the donuts and soda
"Donuts!! You know me so well," the smile on her face was amazing, that girl really loves donuts.
We managed to eat the whole box of donuts, well she ate most of them. I loved her love for donuts, I loved the smile she got when I brought them, I loved the look in her eyes when she was tired. I don't think there is a single thing I don't love about her.
"We should probably get to bed, we do have school tomorrow" I said
"Oh ya, that thing, lol I'm gonna need to borrow some pajamas" she said
"Go ahead you know where they are"
"Thank you," she walked over to my dresser and pulled out a pair of sweats and a t-shirt. She was facing away from me as she changed, her shirt slid of slowly, I couldn't help but look. The curves of her body were beautiful, my eyes traveled along her body till suddenly, they met with her eyes. Oh shit! She caught me, now what...
"Your staring," she giggled and seemed to be blushing
"Am not," I let out a laugh
"If you say so," she smiled sliding into my shirt and then sliding off her jeans. Oh god, how did I not notice her body all these years, my head is spinning, I really have to speak with Shane, he'll know what to do. And thank god cause I'm so lost right now, I think I have feelings for her, but I don't know how to deal with them.
"Your doing it again," she said, with a little smirk painted across her face. Finally she had gotten dressed, now maybe my staring will die down and she will go back to not noticing.
"Sorry, I must be doing it without thinking," I apologized
"It's ok, how about we go to bed," she smiled as she climbed into bed. I slept how I normally did that night, my head buried into her chest with her arms wrapped around me, only tonight was different. Those arms made me feel safe, that heart I heard in her chest I hoped was beating for me. She must have thought I had fallen asleep because she leaned in and whispered
" goodnight karms," as she kissed my forehead, I laid there for a few more minutes and her breath had evened out, she was asleep. I held her tight hoping I'd never have to left go, but we will see, I closed my eyes and drifted to sleep.