Yours, Always

Chapter Fifty Two

I leave the house and head straight to the local sweet shop. I know it's odd but George had this obsession with strawberry bonbons and I want to get him some.

It's the first time in ages I've been to George's grave during the day and today it's boiling. I'm only wearing a vest top and shorts but I'm so hot I grab a bottle of water from the shop as well.

George's head stone just comes into view when I see a shirtless Bobby lying on the glass, head on his t-shirt reading a book. Every now and again he says something and then pops something into his mouth but from where I am I can't see what it is.

The sun is directly overhead and it's sweltering, I can see why Bobby's took his top of but really the fact he is in jeans baffles me. I'm not complaining though because the view is amazing.

Eventually I feel like a bit of a stalker so I move closer.

"Hey," I say standing right next to him but looking at George.

"Hey," he replies but carries on reading and I know that's his way of letting me know he's cool with me talking to George first.

"Hey buddy," I tell him feeling the letters my eyes read.

I wait for him to reply but he doesn't.

"I can't believe it's been 12 years George."

And for the first time in forever I feel sad, sad that he's never going to get old, sad that he never got to know the me now. I'm sad they he will never be my brother in law because I always wanted to be a part of his family.

"I got something for you," I say showing him the white bag of strawberry bonbons.

I hear Bobby laugh from behind me.

"I got him some too," he tells me sitting up and that's when I realise that's what he was eating earlier when I was watching him.

"Good, then I can keep these to myself," I say and sit next to him taking his hand in my own.

We sit in silence for a bit, just thinking I guess. I pop a strawberry bonbon into my mouth and eat it slowly, in no rush to go anywhere and I love the fact that I don't have to worry about James anymore.

"How's your mum doing?" I ask knowing this year must be hard as she's finally back where it happened.

"She was crying when I left," he tells me and I know it's hard on him.

"You can stay with me today if you want," I say smiling up at him.

"Don't you have a boyfriend to get back to?" He says not hiding how bitter he feels.

"Well.... Actually I don't."

"You don't?" Bobby asks confused.

"No, I broke up with James. I am officially single and have been for a week today." I tell him rather excitedly.

"Andy...." He says but I don't give him a chance to finish. I climb into his lap and straddling him I kiss him as though it's my last hope for survival. The heat radiation from his skin is intense and I can't get enough of it, I run my hands through his hair and down his back, I rock slightly and when he moans I stick my tongue into his mouth and deepen the kiss until I'm not sure when he ends and I begin.

He pulls away slightly "Andy...."

"You dare say I'm sorry and I will punch you." I tell him laughing.

"I wasn't going to say that, I just need a minute," he says and I can see him blushing slightly.

"You're right – we aren't having sex – "

"I know, fuck I'm –" he says and I smack him.

"Stop saying sorry you idiot and let me finish, I was going to say you are right we aren't having sex in a cemetery!"

"Was that really what you were going to say?" he asks

"Absolutely," I say and I'm so glad he can tell that I'm telling the truth.

He looks at me and I can see in his eyes what he wants to say but I also see uncertainty.

"Say it Bobby, please."

"I love you Andy."

"I love you Bobby." I say and I lean into kiss him.

"Andy?" Bobby questions pulling away.

"You're right – lets finish this at home."