Now You Notice Me

Wow! Ch.11

Kevin's PoV

     I woke up from a restless night and sat up in my bed. I sat there rubbing my face trying to wake myself up. All I could think about was what am I going to do. I couldn't figure out a way to make things better with Edd. I can think about it in the shower, hopefully that will help my thought process wake up.
     I walk out of the bathroom with my clothes on and my hair still a little damp. I flopped down on the bed frustrated. "That was a waste of time" saying to no one in particular. The whole time I was in there I couldn't come up with the right words to make things better. I turned my head over towards my alarm which read 11;29. Almost noon. If im going to fix things it has to be today. God this is stressful. What did I do? *DING DONG* who's at the door?
     After about 30 seconds my mom yells up the satires to me. "Kevin there's someone here for you" what? Oh it's probably Nazz coming over to check on me. I get up and go to the door. But it's not Nazz its Edd. Shit I'm not ready for what I have to say.
     I walk up to him at the door. "What do you want?" What was that? Why am I being rude?
     "Grab your stuff and let's go"
     "Go where?"
     "Just grab your stuff and trust me"
     Trust him? What's going on? He's just being stoic, not angry or even upset. I can't tell what he wants but I guess if I'm with him I might be able to figure out what I need to say. I nod to him run up stairs grab my keys, wallet, and phone. I go back down stairs and shut the door behind us. I turn around and Edd is already walking to where ever we are supposed to go I guess. I just follow right beside him. We don't say a thing to each other, we don't even look at each other. After a while I realize we are headed to the old abandoned junk yard. It's pretty private around here so this would be a good place to talk just one on one.
     "Kevin what's going on with you?" Edd says and stops in his tracks. We're about dead center in the junk yard.
     "What do you mean?" I know exactly what he means but I don't know how to explain any of this.
     "What are you doing to me? What are you doing to yourself?"
     "I don't know, just having fun?" God I'm so stupid. What am I saying!
     "So at least you're having fun. So does that mean you like what you're doing?"
     "Well ya I like what I'm doing. It's not like I'm regretting any of it" I'm glad he asked that because I'm able to get my train of thought together.
     "Do you like how it makes you feel when we are together?" He takes a step closer but it's not like a sexual advancement, more like he's trying to get personal with me? I can tell he's trying to figure me out. I'm glad he's trying because I need help putting it into words.
     "I do"
     "So you like how you feel when you're with me and you don't regret when we kiss right?"
     "Yes"
     "And you wouldn't mind if we spent more time together right?"
      "Ya, I wouldn't mind it"
     A small science went over Edd's lips. They were all I could look at but he was looking at my lips too.
      "Kevin can I kiss you?" Did he just ask for permission to kiss me? How do I answer that? Do I just say yes or do I go in for it. Why am I having such a hard time right now? I just wasn't expecting him to still want to kiss me. I'm not able to give him an answer before his soft lips near mine.
     His lips are resting just millimeters from mine. He did kiss me. He's waiting for something, maybe he doesn't want to kiss me after all. I look him in the eyes. His beautiful blue eyes look so confused. I need to man the fuck up already. It's time to tell him how I feel. I take things into my own hands. I close my eyes and close the space between our lips. His sweet lips dance across mine as our hands embrace each other. This kiss is unlike our others were confused explosions of emotions. This one is deep and real. Like we know exactly what we want and know exactly how to show it. Our slow passionate kiss seemed to slow down time as well. He stopped our kiss and looked into each others eyes.
     "Yes" I say to Edd and he gives me a small laugh followed by an eye roll.
     "Kevin I nee~"
     "Edd I love you!" Holy shit I said it and actually knew what it means to me. I'm terrified, I guess that how I know it's real because I'm so scared of being rejected.
     "You lov~"
     "I mean it! I really do Edd. I want you to be mine and I can prove it."
     "And how do yo~"
     "And I swear to god I won't run away from this"
     "Kevin that's ver~"
     "This is how I feel and I'm sure of it now so I just needed to let you know that I do. I really do love you"
     Edd just stares at me with one raised eyebrow and a smirk. Oh god did I say something wrong? "Well?"
     "Are you done?" He gives me a smirk and laughs.
     "Ya sorry I'll let you talk now" I laugh with him and let him continue.
     "Kevin Barr, you are ... A jack ass. But I think I can find a space for an asshole like you in my life"
     "What? Reall~"
     "But you have to promise something"
     "Ya sure anything"
     "We need to figure this out ... Together"
     "I'm game"
     "Good now that we've at least gotten that down, I'd advise that we eat. It's a good idea not to think on an empty stomach"
    "That's a good idea. Want to go somewhere?"
     "I'll drive" he sakes his keys and we are off to his house. We get in his car and go out and have something to eat. We spent pretty much the rest of the day out around town. We talked about what we did for the past few years. We caught up and had fun. I was upset because I thought that the little dweeb was lost to me forever but when you really get Edd talking he's still a little dork.
     "It's 8pm already, I suppose we should go back home" I don't want to go home yet. I just want to get to know Edd better. I guess he's right though and besides he's still a proper dork so he's probably still not used to being out late.
     "Ya I guess you're right, but I don't want to stop talking. Here give me your number"
     We swapped numbers and he took me back home and he went home himself. I went inside to my room and opened my phone ready to send him a message but it didn't feel right. I wanted to talk to him but it's not the same on a screen. I got up off my bed and out of my house. I needed to be with him.