Everyone's got a dark side

Everybody has a darkside and a light future

 *Ronnies POV*

"Harry tell me about your past. You've never told me..'' I asked. The cold wind was giving my chills everywhere but at this moment I didn't care, I wanted to know his past.

"Look Ronnie I l-, I trust you but the thing is that I don't want you to think bad about me. I'm not the same as before." He said. Damn he is too fucking stubborn.

"You're not giving me enough information Harry. This night could've been so much better if you just told me about your past!" I say raising my voice. I get quite fustrated pretty easily.

"This night would've been better if you didn't ask that damn question!'' He yells at me and the darkness in his eyes return. Hes frightening when hes mad and I know I shouldn't be surprised. He and I both have short tempers, hes just scary with them...

He noticed my discomfort and softened his face and body. He looked almost sorry yet I was too afraid to look at him. I've only known him for a couple months, I don't know what hes capable of....

I felt him tense up a bit, then he grabbed my forearm and started taking me down the street by the resturant again. Although we didn't go in, he took me to his car.

We sat there in a silent space not moving just sitting there.... He sighed before he started to speak..

"I'm sorry," he said and by the sound of his tone I knew he meant it, "I shoudn't have yelled at you that way. I now understand why you would want to know. In case I'm a physco, or a drug dealer, or a murderer...Well I'm not the first two." He said.

I gulped..

"What about murderer..'' I softly spoke hoping he didn't hear.... but he did.

He turned to face me and my whole body tensed up. The look of horror plastered on my face..

He killed someone.. Maybe more than one!

"No.. please don't get scared Ronnie I need to explai-'' I cut him off,

"You killed someone! How could I trust you?" I say, my voice quavering from fear. My hand went to open the door but Harry kept locking it. I struggled to get out but he wrapped his arms around me and progressivly put me in his lap.

"I told you, you wouldn't see me the same way again! I love you Ronnie... I'd never hurt you..." He said whispering the last few words. He sounded really hurt and insecure.

"You're fucking insane Harry!" I say still struggling to get out of his hold.

"No I'm not just let me explain please!" He said and I felt a liquid fall on my shoulder. He was crying, like actually crying.... I thought I'd give him a chance to explain himself..

He let me sit back down in the passeners seat whilst he got ready to tell me how and why was he a murderer.

He touched his face and brought his hands up to his hair. His eyes red with dryed tears on his cheeks, yet he kept swiping them away. He took a few deep breaths before he began to speak.

"I really needed the money back then so I joined a gang that would help me get it. Silvia was in it and at that time she was 'my girl' and uh- well a 'customer' didn't pay to she ordered me to kill him.

Thing was I didn't want to. I really really didn't want to, but I was love struck and they also threatened to kill my uhm- my m-mum and sister. I had to do it for them, but they never knew. 

Now you're asking why I needed to money? Well my mom got into an motor vehicle accident and I had no job nor did my sister. We also couldn't pay bills. All I ever wanted was for my family to live happy forever.

But then Silvia introduced me to her 'gang' and thats when it started. I became an assassin, but not for her gang. I went to the police officials and the chief was my uncle so I was ordered to kill them all with two other assassins, Jeff and Bill. Then the gang found out I was behind it and one night I was going after Silvia. I found out she wasn't good for me and what she was trying to do so I grew to hate her. Anyway, on my way to the mission I was shot in a dark ally. Thats the night I died... 

You think I'm crazy now?" He asked.

So I guess he just did it out of protection for his family. Although I'm still shocked about it. I don't think I can see him for a while. 

I didn't answer him so he just looked out the window as I sat in my seat thinking...

"Please take me with Liam." I said, Liam was a brother of mine now and I needed some comfort. I guess Harry knew my discomfort and understood so he just nodded and turned on the engine.

We arrived to an apartment and we stood outside the door for a while becaue he needed to tell me something.

"I know you probably dont ever want to see me again and I understand. I just want you to know that I love you." He said. I still loved him and forever will too. I just need some rest.

Then I realised that I shouldnt be afraid of him. All he did was protect people. Besides I'm pretty sure he saved more lives than he took.

"No I still love you. I want to cuddle you and hold you and kiss you but I don't know why I can't." I said. Wait a second... I've never kissed him..

"Why can't you? I'm innocent, just because I've had a rough past doesn't mean I'm a horrible person now." He says. The look of sorrow and regret stained his face.. At that moment I felt horrible. I love him and I should trust him when he says hes not a bad guy. He was almost like a cop. Fighting for justice.

"You're right Harry I'm sorry.." I say before embracing him. I burried my face in his neck and thats when I realised just how tired I was. For the moment my head rested on his shoulder I was slowly falling to sleep.

"You're sleepy aren't you?" He asked chuckling. "Lets go inside then and tonight you're sleeping with me, no excuses." He said almost in a joking matter.

To be honest I really wanted to share a bed with him. Although I still have never kissed him and in a way I feel bad because we fight more than anything. But I know I'm in love with every little detail of him. 

And I know as a matter of fact that hes in love with me too..

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Short I know but theres plenty more to come I promise. Goodnight :)