Diary

24th May 2016

Wow. I haven't updated in a while.

In all fairness I have had no internet.

I won't apologise as I have no one to apologise to.

Even if I did it was out of my hands anyway.

Today I woke up and I felt down. Very down. I hope it doesn't stay like it did last time. I would have to leave if it did. I couldn't stand it last time. Hopefully, if anyone actually did care, then they would understand why I would have to leave of it did come back. Hypothetically. Last time was awful. I'll update you on whether it does happen again. I think it is likely to happen again as I have been feeling quite odd recently. That's the only word that I can think to describe it. There is no other way. I would say nostalgic but nostalgia is a thing you feel when you see something that was from or reminds you of your childhood. It never comes to stay. But for me it has.

I can't seem to get my mind off old friends. How they are doing. What they are doing. If they still think of me like I still think of them. They probably don't. I was going through a profile of an old friend the other day and she seems a lot happier than she was when she was friends with us. She used to go out with Michael. I think she had a girlfriend but they must have broken up. She probably doesn't think of me. She used to call me her best friend and now I bet she has forgotten all about me. Bit that's okay. I don't want her to think about me. I don't like her and I don't want to remember her. She was bad.

I think that's all for today. Maybe I'll update tomorrow. Probably will.