Diary

Friday 29th march 2019

im so much better now.

things with josh are still going great. It has been a troubling week since he has been home late most nights as his class have had to help put on shows with the performing arts class. they did a production of grease. I wish I could have attended so I knew how they went so I could tell him how proud I was of him. I'm going up to his house next Saturday, in exactly 8 days. I am a little excited yet mostly nervous. I have to meet his family as well as his pets. I have never been introduced to a family as a boyfriend before, or generally as a partner for that matter. I hope I am good enough for them, the only thing I really have to show off about myself is my current academic achievement but I cant imagine they would like to hear about that. hopefully ill be able to hold a conversation where I ask them a lot of questions so they don't have much time to ask me any but I imagine it wont be very likely as they will want to know at least something about me. if not as an evaluation of me as their sons first boyfriend but as a curiosity about the stranger staying in their house. I have to attend church for one morning whilst I am there as his parents are pretty Mormon. im just glad they are accepting. I hope I dot get upset at the church as they are pretty intolerant as far as churches go. his parents want to move church because of their intolerance but that is the only church near to them and its still an hour drive. I feel pretty bad for them, I hope I don't fall asleep or get a headache, josh may want to talk during church but I don't want to get told off by the church people (im not sure of the name).

I hope to come back to this diary, I enjoy writing this, its cathartic. I have more time on my hands now as I am revising much more efficiently and im not so tired anymore. its like ive been reborn since I have gotten with josh. I know I haven't but it feels nice. It's so refreshing to be with someone who gives as much as he takes. I love him.