Lemonade

Intuition

I tried to make a home out of you.
But doors lead to trap doors. A stairway leads to nothing. Unknown women wander the hallways at night.
Where do you go when you go quiet? You remind me of my father, a magician, able to exist in two places at once. In the tradition of men in my blood you come home at 3 a.m. and lie to me.
What are you hiding?
The past and the future merge to meet us here
What luck, what a fucking curse.

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Beyoncé's POV

I tossed and turned in bed. Moaning groaning sweating cold sweats. I reached for the one I loved, the one I sat down and had a baby with the man I let put a ring on this finger. Gone.

"Jay..." I got up and walked around the house. I checked on blu and saw her awake playing in her hair.

"Baby what's wrong why are you up?" I sat next to her on her bed.

"Daddy lewft us..." She started to cry. It wasn't the first time...second time or third time jay left us in the middle of the night and I guess blu was up to see it.

"Shhh its ok baby go back to sleep. Everything is gonna be ok. How bout in the morning we go see nicki?" I sat her in my lap wiping her tears. She smiled and shook her head yes. "Ok now you gotta go back to sleep ok.." I kissed her forehead putting her back into bed. "Night mommy." She said cuddling back up in the covers going to sleep. I got up closing her door and walked to the kitchen got a bottle of water and went back in the room.

Nicki was my best friend I could vent to her even tho she had meek, she always made time for me. I know it was like 2 in the morning but, I needed her. I picked up the phone and went to call her.

"Hello...bey you know its like 2 in the morning? Where's Jay?" She just woke up I can tell by her voice.

"I'm sorry I didn't mean to wake you, you can-" I got cut off.

"Stop Beyoncé.... Where's Jay is he there?" She said now alert.

"I dunno he just up and left in the middle of the night. I don't know he was acting all crazy before. We went to bed. I asked him if he had to work late again tonight and he said why is it your business. Clearly it is my damn business cause you always seem to be gone when I need your ass." I was getting kinda pissed because this was the third time this week he left me alone in the night.

"Ok for one calm down, Beyoncé your over reacting. He may just get a call from the studio saying that he needs to come in for something. Happens all the time to me. Bey if he didn't love you he wouldn't come back now would he?" Nicki had a point. Its not like he left and never came back.

"Yea. Your right. I'm just all mad because he wasn't next to me. I just-...Nicki... Nic.." She stared to softly snore. I just laughed and hung up then heard key. This nigga got the nerve.

I walked downstairs and sat on the couch and waited till he got in. He turned on the light and jumped at the sight of me.

"Hey babe." I said was looking at my nails and smiled. He looked at me dumbfounded.

"I said hey..." I got up and walked to him."so... Where you been?" I traced is buttons on his shirt. "I thought you were sleep. I went to the store." He hesitated. I knew he was lying. "So, you went to the store and you have no bags, plus you smell like sex and cheep perfume." I looked up at him waiting on him to say something. He pushed me out the way walking up to the room. I ran and stood in the way of the stair case. "Move Giselle." He tried to push me out the way. "And if I don't.." I would be damned if he raised his hand up at me. He pushed me out the way and stepped over me and I followed him up to the room ass he took his clothes off." Nigga did you out your hands on me?! And your ass out here fucking other hoes that's how the fuck it is now?" I blocked the bathroom door. "You think you know everything don't you Beyoncé you don't you you act like I can't go to the damn store and get a drink I'm a grown ass nigga you don't gotta know ever move I make." He pushed me to the floor and I got up and slapped him. "Oh now you wanna hit people." He threw me against the wall. Hard. "GET OFF ME!" I struggled to get loose. "Nah you wanna act like a nigga imma treat you like one." He stared to punch me and I tried to fight back witch only made shit worst.

He put me down going to bed. I got up going blu's room to find her still sleep through all that noise, I got in her bed and fell asleep with her. I didn't want to sleep with that nigga. He made me sick.

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Nicki's POV

"HE DID WHAT? Beyoncé why didn't you call me again! I could have came!" I was beyond pissed o never though jay would do that to bey they was so...so... Together. All I know is Beyoncé and jay was the power couple to a lot of people. You would never see jay put hands on bey in that way.

"I don't know. He just... I don't know" she stared to cry. I never seen her cry like that in a long time.

"Shhh...he just was upset he would never hit you again like that." I rubbed her back as she cried in my arms I kinda felt bad because she has never gone through this until she had blu.

"Baby I'm gone." Meek came and kissed me and I nodded. He didn't really like bey cause I would always spend more time with her then I did him. Best chicks before dicks I always was gonna be there for bey even if it ment not seeing him for a while. Even tho I hated it. Sometimes I feel like he's jealous that bey is my little baby...

Beys phone stared to ring. "Hello... He did what.. Fine let em be..." She rolled her eyes and hung up putting her face in her hand.

"What a fucking curse." Bey broke down crying.