Lemonade

Apathy

So what are you gonna say at my funeral now that you've killed me? Here lies the body of the love of my life, whose heart I broke without a gun to my head. Here lies the mother of my children both living and dead, Rest in peace my true love, who I took for granted, most bomb pussy, who because of me, sleep evaded. Her shroud is loneliness, her God is listening. Her heaven would be a love without betrayal.

Ashes to ashes, dust to side chicks

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Beyoncé's POV

Nicki was knocked out on the bed. I checked my phone and saw that Shawn tried texting and calling me. I kinda felt like going back to him, not only because he was the dad of my little girl, but I loved him... His wrong doings may be bad but. I married him I'm not gonna throw away those 8 years that we built and 4 of those years we had a beautiful child to take care of. Why would I waste that. I texted him back.

Me- what do you want Shawn.

Shawn- I want my baby and my baby girl back...

Me- but you have hurt me so bad. Why should I come back to you so all you can do is go back to that little how of yours and leave me again huh? What was it that I did to you so you could cheat on me. You always loved me and I loved you. No mater what anybody said to me. My mom, and don't get me stared on my sister. Shawn your suppose to be here with me 25/8 and you stay out at work or something.

At this point I was in tears I hated the fact that he did so much. I felt betrade I felt like shit. Shawn loved her more than me, Beyoncé Giselle Knowles-carter, I turnt my phone off and onika rolled over to me. My face was red and tears were rolling down my face.

"Bey its OK. Why are you crying, stop crying please." She wrapped her arms around me and I broke down in her arms.

I just hated that I made meek leave nicki for my own reasons. And she was calm about the fact after. I feel like just because of me I'm making people lives misarable. I made and album... You know... Lemonade... And it has effected so many relationships. I saw one girl DM me and wrote quote:

Im only 15 but, your album has showed me not to let a man ruin my life. But then take him back no matter what happens, I see some of your beyhive jumping on people but don't really know the story behind the madness. When the world hands you jay-z you make lemonade. But... Lemonade is a good refreshing drink that is bitter sweet and people don't see that...but I do.. And ms. Beyonce I applaud you for that. Anyways I think I'm just trying to say. Thank you... Because I wouldn't have gotten through my relationship with out this. - Jada Tamia Maraj.

I was happy that I helped her, and I'm gonna bypass the fact her name was maraj. I'm pretty sure if you was DM me you would have used your real name not your instgram name. Anyways it made me cry. I have never thought ir would be this affective. I just wish I could trust shawn again. Now i gotta go ask if nicki knows bout this jada child.

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You think this the end its only the beginning...

OK ok guys I have an announcement to make...

I need people for this book if I keep this going .. I'm a little dusty bout making books cause I haven't for along time so...

Heres what I need... (Roll for Nicki's daughter is taken sorry😊 I feel like I gave away the next chapter but... Idgaf)

Name:

Age:

What are you in this book to nicki or beyonce or meek or anybody that has been in this book:

How do you look:

Barb or beyhive:

I mean you can write extra stuff if you want I've always wanted to including my readers in books so I can get them more invovled.

Beyhive don't kill me bout my letter now...

Sorry for the short chapter I have feelings and I'm in them so Yea...

And Yea see ya later alligators... MUAAAHHHHH😙😙😙😘😘😘