Lemonade

Denial

I tried to change, closed my mouth more, tried to be soft, prettier, less awake. Fasted for sixty days, wore white, abstained from mirrors. Abstained from sex, slowly did not speak another word. In that time my hair I grew past my ankles. I slept on a mat on a floor.I swallowed a sword, I levitated into the basement...
I whipped my own back and asked for dominion at your feet. I threw myself in a volcano. I drank the blood and drank the wine... 
But still inside me coiled deep was the need to know
Are you cheating on me?

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Beyoncé's POV

It was a long day...this time...jay didn't comeback that night. He's still out as I speak. He knows what he got wating and yearning for him at home. Its been a long ass time before I had sex. I craved it sooooo much. There isn't a toy that could satisfy me in the world. I felt empty. Jay hasn't answered my calls text facetimes nothing. I need him... And NOW!

"Mommyyyyy..." Blu came whining and pulling on me. "Yes baby girl, what's wrong?" I picked her up and looked at her. Boyyy if she didn't look like Jay, "I huwt my pwinky..." She held her pinky out in my face where she had a little scrape. "How you do that?" It took her and put a band-aid on it and kisses it to make it better and looked at her. "I dunno." She made my day. Even if jay wasn't here she was my everything. I laughed at her and put her down. "Well tell me when you find out boo." I sent her off to play with her dolls and I sat on the couch to watch TV.

Nicki's POV

I left the studio I was heading home. Lord knows my fans betta be Bella happy I love them let me pull a Beyoncé on em one time and they will hunt me down and kill me , literally. I found my self hungry and to lazy to cook so, I went to olive garden to get me and meek something to eat then this girl caught my eye. She was really pretty and....fine.. My eyes followed her to see if she was with somebody but my stomach was telling me to get the damn food.

I went up to order my food and sat at the table to wait on it. My eyes lost the girl then I found her with... Nah... Couldn't be...is it?... IT FUCKING IS... Rihanna! (Y'all bitches thought it was jay... Y'all just assuming shit..)

I got up and walked over to the table and got closer to see who the girl was which it was ciara.

"Hey girl! What you doing her I thought you was at the studio?" Ciara hugged me. "I was, I was, I just left and then I got hungry low key wanted that chicken from Popeye's but... I need to stay slim thick for my baby." I smiled at the last part.

"Girl if yhu don't get that damn chicken." Rih giggled. "You know you want it so why you buggin?" She smirked at me and I rolled my eyes. Lowkey still wanted it.

Ciara scrolled through her Instagram and stopped mid scroll. "Nic where your girl bey at?" She still looked at her phone. "I don't know home I guess she haven't did nothing since jay left last night." I said looking on her phone. "Why?" Rih leaned in too.

"Umm...see for yourself..."she showed us a picture.

I sure as hell know this ain't damn Beyoncé. "Screen shot it send it to bey" rih said. "No! That's wrong, bey don't wanna see that shit!" I said. "What if its a set up." I didn't really wanna hear her mouth.

"I sent it akredy ya asses slow as fuck." Ciara put her phone down and got instantly text back.

Bey-what..where was this ci why did you send me this.

Ci-cause nicki wanted me to. You know who this is right bey.. He ain't good for you.

Bey- well let me figure that out he may just be doing work.

"Somebody point out he obvious to bey cause she in denial." she said tossing her phone to me.

Me- bey you have been seeing so much going on with him just leave bey bey he's not worth it.

by the time I finished the man came with my food and I left  to go home.

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Beyoncé's POV

I really felt like nicki was jealous but could she be right. He came through the door and brushed passes me. "Where the hell you think you going you ain't even say hey. Who the hell is this hoe you was with?" I stood in front of him then he looked at me.

"You know what Beyoncé I'm tired of coming home and you all up in my face like I don't got a life to live." He threw sat on the couch and continued to be on his phone. I sat in his lap watch him he pushed me off. Who the fuck do you think I is?  I stanatched his phone going through it. "What the fuck you think you doing" he grabbed my arm and swiped me across the face and took his phone and went out the doNic I was done I told the gauds to not let him in anymore.

"Blu baby wake up.. We going out." I slightly tapped her and picked her up calling nicki.

Nic- Yea he on a bussnies trip you can come over boo.

Bey-ok I just can't believe he did that.

I stared to cry in the phone, blu was trying to comfort me but she was to tired to do anything.

Nic- its alright bey bey just come on and we will talk about it ok.

I told her I was on my way and I hung up wiped my face and went out the door.

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Nicki's POV

"He denyed my question and h-he just.." Bey was distressed and she need me.

"I know Beyoncé but, you have to know when we are telling the truth." I rubbed her back and later her head on my lap playing in her hair and she put her feet on the couch.

"Thank you Nika. You know you have been there for me more than my own husband." She slightly smiled.

"Cause he's a ass girl you know this why you still with his ass." We both laughed and shared a long stare. Before I know it our lips connected and I enjoyed it.

She sat up and straddled me not breaking the kiss and I wrapped my arms around her waist and deepened it. She stuck her togune in my mouth and sucked on it. My hands wondered up her shirt unhooking her bra and her moaning in my mouth sending shivers down my back. I let go and looked at her and she had a sad face.  "I need you nicki..." She mumbled on my neck, "I need you now..." She reached her hand in my shorts and started playing with my clot as I moaned in her ear I couldn't take it any more I needed her.

Beyoncé's POV

I felt her breath picking up and her facial expressions showed a lot. "b-bey please s-stahhppp.." She bit her lip arching her back as I stuck two fingers in her going hard. "You know you like this Nika just let it-" I got cut off by the door opening and saw the one I didn't want to see..

Meek.

Y'all like my book don't y'all..😍😍😍 -jada Tamia maraj