Maybe she loves me , Maybe she doesnt

Hello?

Alice pov

I didn't know where I was all I knew was that Riker was driving and he was with me

I felt a sudden stop and woke up , I glanced at riker who had a confused face

" Alice it's been bothering me ..." He stuttered

" what's wrong riker " I said while yawning

" what was that whole thing about in the meeting , you Cody , dating , leaving , music .... "

" it was nothing , don't worry about it " u wasn't satisfied with my answer

" tell me " he looked deep into my eyes

" we'll I really didn't wanna tell you about it , but I'll tell you "

I stopped before I spoke any more . We were at my house at the beach . I looked at the waves and wondered if I should tell riker 'everything ' I didn't want him to know

" come on you'll tell me on the shore "

I giggled because of that sentence ' shor ' even riker laughed

We got out of the car and I still couldn't walk , who could blame me . Riker carried me and we sat down by the 'shor'

" promise you won't get mad ?" I asked

" cross my heart "

" alright .... I moved to LA because of Cody . He used me ... Bad . We dated for about 3 years . Then everything went down hill . I wrote multiple song about him as did he of me . One night he just took it too far. He used me to get to my parents and our records . Then once late night in my studio , the one I just showed you , he almost raped me ..."

I , I couldn't go on . It hurt to much to remember .

Riker just watched me . He got up and put his legs around my body and held me in a hug . A full body Hug . I just cried . I knew my parents could have seen all of this .

I never told them . Nothing . Just left without saying a word . I asked Jeff to come with me , he agreed and we left one cold foggy night and reports were filed and everything

" I'm sorry baby , I didn't mean for this to happen." He said hugging me tight

" it's ok , u didn't know " I managed to spit the words out of my mouth

We sat there for the whole day . Talking about his life , as well as mine but never told him the part that killed me . I didn't know how he would react , so I left it out

Played with my hair I just ran my hands threw his

I never told him my I wore so much make up even though he said I look pretty without it . The truth is that he has never seen me without makeup . I wear special make up that last 24/7 . My flaws weren't what I wanted to cover

" WHERE HAVE YOU TWO BEEN ?!" I heard a familiar voice

I turned around and saw my mother , who looked so panicked

"I thought you left again ! My god " she stared down at me and riker . Either way I couldn't get up.

My mother was my world but sometimes she's just too "attached " to me . Like how my middle name is Rose ... Her name is Rose

" sorry Mrs. Sterling , I didn't know Alice had a curfew "

My mother stopped for a Minute because she wasn't talking about that . But she acted like she was.

" ummm yes .... She has to be home by midnight ......" She quickly changed the reason she was looking for me

" sorry mom I should have texted you " I replied to her warning her to leave

" yes Alice .... Ok bye now " she just left running back into the house

I laughed at how my mother had just ruined out moment

" we'll that went well " riker laughed

" how about you take me inside " I asked

He smirked , he took it the wrong way . Boys these days

" I'll be glad to go inside " he winked at me

I kindly punched him on the arm and he lifted me and took us to our room

" thanks babe" I smiled

" how about that trip ?" He laughed

" as much as I would enjoy that , no I'm still sore from today "

" movie ? " he asked

I kindly said yes and riker look at our movie selection as I tried to walk into the closet . My closet was pretty big , it's has its own room . I looked at and found a long shirt . I changed Into it . It only covered like half my but. Oh well .

As I walked out riker was taking off his shirt and pants . I think I got wet . Oh no . He just had his boxers on.

He turned around and saw me . He stopped to give me a look or better yet he just checked me out. I got my hair and put it in a crappy pony tail .

I walked toward the bed then riker spoke

" woah , someone just turned me on like a light switch " he sang the last part and smiled

I just smiled and got in bed , as did riker .

" what movie we watchin " I asked

" I was thinking a romance / comedy "

" sounds good " I saw getting comfy on riker

I felt riker put his hand on my thigh . Damn that tuned me on .

The movie was half way . He slipped his hand under my shirt . I couldn't take it .

I sat on top of him and kissed him hard . He leaned up and grabbed my back . I ran my hands threw his hair . And he kissed me I giggled . He undid my bra and took it off . We kissed nothing more .

We stopped to have little giggles and smiles . Then I felt bad for him . I felt his boner on me . I kept kissing him . I wrapped my legs around his waist as I felt him running his hands up my shirt . He took off my shirt as I covered my body with his . My breast against his chest , our lips on each other's .

It felt perfect .

" I love you " he said wrapping his arms around my body as we stopped kissing

I tucked my head onto his shoulder . He held me like a little girl .

He leaned back as we laid on top of each other it was already 1:35am

Woah did we really kiss that long ? It seemed like only 5 minutes .

Riker took the covers and covered us . I laid there thinking if how perfect my life is . I didn't close the curtain so we could be lit by the moon light . Everything was perfect for once . I'll have to find a way to tell him about ....

We fell asleep and in the morning woke up to tea and coffee and coffee cake on a tray that had a note that read

" for Mrs. & Mr. Lynch "

Did they already consider us married ? What ? I loved it . I put on my shirt and went to the bathroom and took a quick shower .

As I showered all of it showed . No make up to cover them up . This is me . I shampooed my hair and washed my body and got out . I waited till I dried and applied makeup again . I put my hair in a clip and put on a big sweater and some skinnies with my UGG boots and came out

Riker handed me a cup of coffee . This is the perfect time to confess to him

" riker I have to tell you something ......"

" sure baby what is it ?"

" I have thoughts , bad thought " I stopped

" what do you mean ?" He asked sitting down on the chair next to me

" ummm you know death thoughts , cuts , kill-"

He cut me off

" you have suicidal thoughts ?! " he looked mad and worried for me