Don't judge.

chapter 19

guys I been such an arse with writing I apologize. I might end the story soon. enjoy

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I woke up to to Michael gone. I get up and walk to his mitchen to see him cooking.

"Aw how sweet you didnt have to" I say

"Its a pleasure" he says

we both sat down and ate.

"So wjo are you chosing?" he asks

"Michael im not chosing" I say

"im confuse" he says

"I cant bare them fighting at all, im just gunna leave for a while please dont tell anyone..." u say

"where do you plan to go?" he asks

"i plan to just sleep around" I say

"just stay here" he says

"Michael theyll find out and come here..." I say

"I wont say anything" he says smiling

"would you mind?" I ask

"No not at all" he smiles

"thanks" I smile back.

he gave me a shirt of his and we went to school. I went to my first class. I actually just walked out...

I walk through the hall way heading to the bleachers to get a smoke.

I sit down and took a cigarette out, lit it up and let the smoke go through my lungs.

someone walks in. its Michael.

"did you know I was here" I ask

"I expected it" I say

"oh" I say

"can I get a smoke" he asks

I hand him one. and lit it up he sits next to me.

"So avoiding harry I believe" he says

"Right on point" I say

"Well why not lets just ditch today and go around the city?" I ask

"Yeah, that be fun" I say

we both stood up and got out school campus soon enough we were in the city we just bussed with the limited money we had on us.

we went to a cafe, and ate a bit there and then we just started walking around.

"Tell me why is it so hard to love?" I ask out of the blue

"Because love cant just happen it builds up" he says

"thats true" I say

"So tell me who do you really love, where does the chemistry go with the three?" he asks

"Now its at no direction...no spark" I say

"Then there's your answer to who you chose" he says

"None?" I ask

"Yeah whats the point of a relationship when you dont feel the same about the other" he says

"I thought I felt something but I was being delutional" I say

"Yeah, now common lets go to the fountain" he says pulling me by my arm playfully

"I dont want to get wet!" I say laughing as he playfully pulls me anyways.

"Ahhh" we both scream splashing each other with water.

we both got out wet, we then ran to a bus stop to catch a bus back to his place.

soon as we got there I say "Hey im gunna pick up clothes, and talk to the three and get this over with"

he comes closer to me, stares into my eyes. it seemed like he was about to kiss me. th3n he just bursts into laughter.

"Michael! you goof!" I say laughing along for no reason

I headed to Zayns. I already called Ashton, Luke, and Marcel.

as I got home the 4 lads was at the living room sitting.

"hey guys" I say

"Roxanne your soaking wet!" zayn says giving me his towel

"Went to the fountain with a friend" I say smiling

I sat down. everyones eyes on me. Zayn sat next to me that gave me comfort.

"Guys heres the deal...Im....im not chosing any of you, I just...I cant okay....so can we all please go back to being friends....or something I hate this mess I've created..." I say

"I respect your decision" Ashton says

"same..." Luke says

Marcel runs ou5 the room. im so...confused.

I run after him "Marcel!"

he was in his room, I came in and locked the door behind us. he sat on his bed with his knees to his eyes crying I believe.

I sit next to him.

"Marcel, sometimes love doesnt go botg eays and we have to learn to except that" I say

"Roxanne, you have no idea how much you've changed my life, your my everything, your the ver first person who didnt judge me..."

"Marcel theres plenty of people like me out there" I say

"Its...its...its just I feel like ive lost you!" he says

"Marcel yoy will...Never ever lose me just know im always here" I came in for a hug

he hugs me back.

"Promise me, that we'll be friends, that you'll never leave me alone" he says looking I to my eyes

"I promise" I say.

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