Chapter 18:im sorry...

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It feels like I'm drowning again,I can't breathe,which way is up?Which way is down?Where is left?where is right?Is it day?Or is it nigh?My chest hurts,it's slowly killing me.Why is this happening?I thought the potion would help me,not make me live my nightmare all over again.This world,why does it hate me so?Why can't it just let me go?!Im tired of this shit!!AHH!!Suddenly there is a sharp pain in my chest and I shoot up,looking around frantically,to only see slender mans familiar face.The pain in my chest and in my heart,it's enough to make me cry,why don't I?I don't realize it until the tear slides down my face that I am crying.I try to speak,but my mouth feels like a desert,hot and dry,cracky and rocky,I desperately need water ."Ben?!Are you alright?!What happened?!I thought it would work!But then your eyes rolled back and you fell to the ground ,struggling for breath,you scared me boy!"slender man says to me in my head.It takes me a second to comprehend what he's saying"It didn't work?..."I think to myself.My thoughts are so jumbled,It's hard for me to really understand,I need to feel it to believe it.I reach to the top of my head and feel around,sure enough,the cat ears are still there.My lips quiver,and I feel I'm about to sob,but I can't,my throat constricts and I try to swallow the lump in my throat.Slender man must have noticed because he hands me a large cup of water which I drink down hurriedly.I smack my lips,take a breath,then try to speak again."I-it didn't work..."I say to him disappointedly.He may not have a face,but slendy seems to be frowning.Right now I feel like I need A hug,badly.So,Slendy being the mind reader he is,quickly scoops me up and holds me as he does Sally as I cry my heart and soul out on his shoulder,staining his suit.Im shaking,not because it didn't work,well,partly from that,but mostly from the drowning feeling I had.It seemed so real,I didn't want to die again,the first time I did,it was horrible,just remembering makes me cry harder.Sledy tries his best to calm me,shushing me,telling me "You're safe now" and "You're ok",mostly repeating over and over "I'm sorry" in my head.He rubs my back while saying these things,calming me a little.After what seems like hours of crying,I finally stop.Im now really tired,slendy,being mr.know it all,brings me to my room and lays me down.As he is turning off the lights and Is closing the door,I say the one thing he need to hear..."It's ok".Making him stop halfway,pausing for a second,then he closes the door,enveloping me in darkness.In only a few short seconds,sleep consumes me.

Sorry it took so long guys,I've been busy trying to finish some work before my last  day of school tomorrow,them it's summer vacation and I can give y'all some good treats!Have a great day my kitties!~

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