Sometimes, Love Is Never Enough

Open Letter #01

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Dear Ex-bestfriend,

Hi! How are you? It's been a couple of months since I heard anything from you. Since that day that you decided to cut me off of your life.

Remember that night when you unfriended me on facebook? Did you imagine I would be shocked? Pissed? Annoyed? Broken hearted?

Did you even think about how would I feel when you turned your back on me without even giving me a reason?

I was crying the whole time, just so you know. :)

I've known you all my life. We've been close for almost 10 years. Have you notice the time?

Remember those times when we got drunk and talk about stupid stuffs?

Remember those times when we talked about those bullshit relationships that you had?

Remember those times that I tried to count all your exes but I gave up instead because they're too many to recall?

Remember those times when we stayed all night long talking about our dreams?

Remember those times when we plan our futures like we had a clue?

Remember those idiots trying to spread issues about us being together and I was like, yuck that's incest!?

Remember those times when you texts me about your fears?

Remember those times when my father left me and you never let a day go by without flood texting me?

Remember those Saturdays we always spent together?

Remember that time when I got upset over a guy I liked?

Remember those times that I'm always the one you talk to about your problems?

Remember that time I cried and you laughed at my face saying "Stop the drama, I love you and we're always here for you."?

Remember those times you used to just popped up at my house and we'll just walk around and talk?

Remember those times when we used to punch each other?

Remember those times when you're the first thing that comes to my mind when I want to escape stress and drama?

Remember those? :) I hope you do.

I love you and you know that. I always tell you that, remember?

You're my brother from another mother, remember?

What happened?
What happened to you?
What happened to us?

We're friends.
We're not supposed to have a break up.
Is that why you just walked away instead of telling me what the problem was?

I was so broken hearted, you see? You always know I have that trust issue. Now, you did this, how am I suppose to trust anyone now?

Now that you proved me that even the one that you've known all your life will leave you too. :)

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I will never spend another lifetime without having you as a friend.

Yan yung sinabi ko sayo noon di ba? Sobrang laki kasi ng papel mo sa buhay ko eh. Alam ko wala na akong mahahanap na kagaya mo.

Unfortunately, ikaw ata nakahanap ng "mas" sakin kaya ayun, poof! Di na tayo friends. :)

Alam mo mas masakit pa to sa break-up ng mga naka-date ko eh. Kasi ikaw, never ko in-expect na mawawala ka. :) Kaibigan kita eh. Di naman nagbe-break kapag friends di ba? Pero anong tawag dito? Fall-out.

Ang sakit kasi letse ka. Sobrang sakit. Natatakot na tuloy ako. :)

Kung ikaw nga na pinakamatagal kong kaibigan nagawa akong talikuran ng walang pasabi, paano pa yung mga sumunod na lang sayo? Iiwan din ba nila ako sa future? Wala na ba talagang permanent? Nakakatakot.

Tinakot mo ko ng sobra. :)

Nag uumpisa na tuloy akong mag isip na baka ako yung may kasalanan. Hindi mo naman kasi ni-explain. Nag assume tuloy ako. :)

Naging mabait naman ako di ba? Well, sa paraang alam ko, oo.

One call away nga lang ako palagi di ba? I may not always be around, but I always got your back, remember that? I always say that to you whenever you're having doubts.

Whenever other people say bad things about you, I always tell you that don't mind them because I'm always here. No matter what happens, I believe in you.

Remember? :)

Sorry ah. Masakit kasi talaga tange! Kasali ka kasi sa top 10 ng mga tao sa buhay ko na alam kong di ako iiwanan eh. :) Tapos, mali pala ako. Hihi :)

I put everything that I have in our friendship, heck we even call ourselves a family. Because we all know that our bond is more than blood.

But you know what hurts me the most? Its when you call me by my first name. :) You never call me that. It just hit me so hard that whatever relationship that you have with me is done. :)

Grabe yung tama sakin eh. Parang sinipa ako sa dibdib tapos hindi ako nakahinga. Ganun eh. :)

Tapos mababalitaan ko pa na ginagawa niyo pa rin yung nga ginagawa natin noon. Hindi nga lang ako kasama. :)

Masaya ba?
Kapag may time ka, sabihin mo naman sakin kung mas masaya nung di na ako kasama. :)

Gusto ko lang malaman. Alam mo naman na madali lang akong kausap. Kung sinabi mo lang na, "Ayaw na kitang maging kaibigan kasi nagseselos siya." Lalayo naman ako eh. Pero imagination ko lang yan. Baka lang yan yung dahilan. Baka. Wala kasi talaga akong ideya. :)

Bwisit ka kasi. Bwisit ka talaga. Masakit letse.

Nabasura yung pakiramdam ko eh. I don't deserve that kind of treatment. Isumbong kaya kita sa nanay mo noh? Hahaha. Malakas pa naman ako dun. :) Haay.

Pero sige, bibitawan na kita. Kaya nga sumulat ako ng open letter eh. Way of letting you go.

Alam mo naman ako, once is always enough. :)

I always wish for your happiness. Marami ka na ring pinagdaanan and you deserve to be happy.

You're one of those good person that I know. You also have a huge heart. I want you to be happy. :) Even without me on the sidelines looking at you when you do.

I hope one day when we see each other again, may it be in the far future when we both have our own families, I want to see that sparkle of happiness in your eyes so I can say to myself that maybe it was right that our friendship has ended. :)

I love you T. :*
I'll always do.

Whatever your reason might be, remember that I will forgive you. But I won't forget. :)

Take care of yourself. Don't do anything stupid alone. And please, please behave. ;)

-Y.