The boys on the side of the road [CREWFIC]

15- Unwanted I love you's

D4

I had been driving for about two hours now. D20 was still asleep on the couch. He deserved his nap. He had been awake for like what, two days in a row? That wasn't healthy.

It was starting to become dark. The sky was getting darker by the minute, and soon it would be night time. I glanced at the clock and read 6:45. I turned on the radio just loud enough for me to hear it, and hummed along the lyrics.

There was this constant noise that I couldn't place, and it's been going on for a while now. Annoyed, – and thinking it came from the radio, maybe caused by bad reception – I turned off the music. An audible muffled sound came from behind me.

I quickly turned to see Sidearms struggling, trying to free himself. He was so loud that it eventually awoke D20 from his needed nap. D20 groaned in annoyance and placed both his feet on the ground. He walked cautiously to Side, and I saw him drawing his arm back, like to punch him.

"No!", I screamed as I set my foot on the break, sending D20 flying to the front of the Westfalia. He gripped himself on the passenger's seat to steady him.

"What the fuck was that, Deluxe!"

"You were about to punch him!", I defended.

"He was being an annoying little shit!", he shouted.

"Leave him alone, D20", I groaled as I made my way to Side.

"You're fucking up the plan, Deluxe!"

"And you think punching the living shit outta him would have made any difference?!"

D20 inhale heavily, his fists clenched until his knuckles were white as he glared between me and Sidearms. "Just go take care of Speedy, I think with your yelling you woke him up...", I sighed, kneeling down next to Side and removing his blindfold.

D20 turned around and walked away, making his way to the back of the van.

I grabbed Sidearms by the shoulders to steady him. He looked at me with glossy eyes, tears threatening to fall down. He looked so adorable, I was feeling so bad about myself for doing this to him, but I had to...

"Look, Sidey", I said in a hushed voice and cupped his face. "I don't wanna do this, but ya know I have to, right..?"

He nodded sadly and tears started rolling down his cheeks. "Side, I-"

"Ugh, fuck! I should have killed you both when I had the occasion!", D20 yelled in frustration.

Side snapped his eyes to mine. They were filled with fear. He was shaking and trying to free himself again.

I kissed his forehead. "Hey, Sidey, calm down. No one's gonna die, okay? D20 won't kill any of you, it's not part of the plan", I told him, trying to soothe him.

I noticed he relaxed a little bit when I kissed his forehead, but we both knew that's not where he wanted me to kiss him. He looked up at me when he noticed my hesitation. I looked back at him with a knowing look.

"I can't remove the tape, Sidey, I'm sorry..."

"Hmmpfmm!", he shook his head furiously.

"I don't understand-"

He whined longly as he cried. I stayed in front of him, looking at him with sorrow. I didn't know what he wanted, I didn't understand.

I removed the hair that was on his forehead and our gaze locked. His eyes briefly dropped to my lips, and now I understood. But I still couldn't remove the tape.

"If I do that, D20's gonna kill me, feller", I smiled sadly.

Side whined again. It sounded like a pleading. I sighed. I really wanted to kiss him, to feel his soft lips on mine at least one last time. We never knew what would happen, if I would have the chance to hold and kiss him again.

I glanced behind me at D20, he was in an animated conversation with a scared looking Speedy. I looked back at Side, who had glossy pleading eyes. I grabbed the tip of the tape, and he immediatly reacted, his eyes widdening.

"You have to promise me not to speak or I might even hurt you if I have to", I warned him before doing anything. He nodded with frightened eyes and I started peeling off the tape slowly.

Side whinced when I removed the tape, and when it was completely off, he didn't waste time and clashed his lips onto mine.

I gave in the kiss completely. It was better than the other time we kissed. It was more...true. More passionnate, like we knew it would never happen again. With my free hand, I cupped his neck to bring him closer to me. I eventually dropped the tape and roamed my other hand all over Side's stomach, under his t-shirt. He moaned a quiet moan in my mouth, and it got me pretty excited. I decided to straddle his lap all the while kissing him hungrily. I slowly started grinding onto him, frotting our erections together through the fabric of our jeans – well Side was only in a pair of boxers.

"Ah, fuck...", he moaned quietly as we parted our lips momentarily. I kept my slow pace, teasing him the best I could as I brought back our swolen lips together. I moaned in Side's mouth when our tongues clashed together in a saliva swirl.

"Fuck, Side...", I whispered, leaning my forehead on his as I kept grinding his lap. We panted quietly and I felt my climax approaching. Side was twitching below me and I could sense he was about to reach his climax too.

"I love you", he whispered against my lips.

I snaped my eyes open and leaned back in shock. I looked at Side in utter shock while he seemed to be really confused. "Deluxe..?"

I shook my head violently. "I can't."

"You can't wha-"

I cut him off by pressing the tape against his mouth again. Side yelled, but it was muffled by the tape.

"Shut up!", I shouted.

It at least got him to stop whinning. He looked at me, again with tears rolling down his face. I stood up and left to go outside the van. Speedy and D20 – especially D20 – were looking at me with surprise. I huffed and climbed out of the Westfalia and into the fresh air of the outside.

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