Star * Heart

Chapter 20

knowing each other means knowing the past..

I went out. It was pitch black at the ocean but the moon shines the beach. I could see a figure by the shore accompanied by a camp-fire. I smiles.

'what are you thinking about?' I asked him. Harry glances at me a little. I sat next to him. I stares at him as he didn't answer my question. 'nothing' he said noticing I was waiting for his answer. Silence. I glances at him and then turn forward looking toward the ocean. 'wanna go for a swim?' I asked. 'what? In the middle of the night?' he asked. 'yup' I said. 'you want?' I asked again after a silence. 'no' he said. 'why? it could be fun' I said again. Silence. I got pissed off. Why is he being like that. Unlively.

'I'm going for a swim' I said standing up on my feet. 'go, if you got drown, I won't help you' he said. I paused. I turn to him and smirked. 'come on!' I said pulling his hand forcing him to get up on his feet as well. And he did. He pulls his hand from me. 'no, Sheira. Thanks' he said again. 'oh, come on!' I said persuading. I know, I was being annoying. 'come, come' I said again grabbing his hand and trying to pull him toward the ocean.

'I CAN'T SWIM, OKAY!'

He pulled his hand back and grabbed both of my shoulders. I was too surprised to speak and react. It's the first time I've heard his shouting voice, he is angry. It's the first time I've seen him like this. The atmosphere got awkward.

'sorry..' he paused. His hands slowly release both of my shoulders. 'we should go back inside' he said slowly backing off from me.

'you know...' I said managed to stop him from keep on walking away. 'I've drown before, when I was little' I said and manage to get his 100% attention toward me. His face showed that he was very shocked. 'no one was there. I was alone. To tell you the truth, I thought that I might die..there are no one to save me at that time' I said. I turns facing the ocean. Flashbacks are being played in my head. 'luckily, I was saved by my childhood friend. Of course, I got mad for swimming alone by him. But, I'm happy since I know that he was worried. He taught me how to swim and now, I do' I smiled. I turn back facing him once again.

'Harry..I know what happened in your past..' I went near him. 'You've drown before, right? It's okay to be traumatized' I said again comforting him. He chuckles. 'what was that?' His voice was rather serious. 'are you making fun of me?!' He asked. He was mad. 'what..' before I manage to finish my words, he butted in. 'you've already know that but you're still testing me asking me to swim eagerly. You think I'm a joke?' he sounded serious. I got scared. I took a deep breath, this is all a misunderstanding. I told myself. I shakes my head.

'Harry..' I paused. 'I want to hear it from your own mouth. It's better you tell me sooner about it than avoiding the topic from the very beginning' I stares at him. I was serious as well. 'Zaeim told me that you've drown before. But, I want to hear it from you. It's a matter that involve you. I don't like having other people telling me about it' I said and managed to silence him again. The atmosphere got awkward again.

'nevermind, I'm sorry if I offend you' I said leaving him. 'wait, Sheira..' He blocked my way. I glares at him. 'sorry..I misunderstood you' he paused. 'would you mind listening to my story?' he asked. It was a sudden invitation. But, I know, even thou he is a guy but no human can escape the reality of holding a feeling all by themselves. Every one needs a shoulder to lean on. I smiled and nods. 'sure' I said.

Both of us sat back down by the shore. I was staring at the camp-fire that he made. It was blazing with flames. I was waiting patiently for Harry to start sharing about his past.

'Unlike you..I was not alone. My parents are with me' he started. 'they swam together with me and we had such a good quality time' he paused. 'your sister?' I asked noticing that his elder sister is not in the story. 'Qisya is not my elder sister. She was adopted' he answered me truthfully. I was surprised. 'really? she is not?!' I asked him. He glances at me and smiles. 'no. my parents thought that they won't have a child. So, they adopted her. Soon after, my mom pregnant of me' he said ending the story about his sister.

'honestly, I don't quite remember what happened that day. So, I was wondering if I could remember everything one day. I really do want to remember. I want to know who saved me and everything' he said. 'you don't remember anything?' I asked making sure of what I've heard. He nods. 'don't try and ask you parents?' I asked. 'I did. But, they always avoid the questions' he said. 'I thought, coming to the beach would helps me remember something, but..I just..can't. I'm scared. The only thing I remembered was when I was drowning and it was very painful' he said. His eyes looked very lonely. They're shaking. Silence. I smiled.

'hey..' I called for him while peaking at his look-to-the-ground-face. 'I'll help you. We will overcome your fear with the ocean and help you remember' I smiled. 'it could be fun! I'm sure of it' I said while smiling to the ocean. As I turn back to him, he smiled. That was the sweetest and most honest smile he ever gave.

'Sheira! Harry!' Rena called out for us from afar. We both glances at her. She was running toward us. The others followed her. 'Uncle Osin bought us some fireworks. Let's play!' said Shila who was running with Rena. 'fireworks!? seriously?' I asked. I was very happy. The last time I played with fireworks was....err...few years ago. It's been a while. 'oh, we already have fire here. That's good' said Ash after he saw the camp-fire Harry made. 'here, have some' said One giving out the fireworks.

That night, we played with the fireworks. It was fun. I glances at Harry and I was very glad that he was having fun as well. Could this fun last ?

I wonder.