Smoke & Mirrors(ON HOLD)

Chapter Nine

( sorry for mistakes)

October

" Alyx, I'm going to miss you!" Ash said while hugging me ever so tightly.

" I know you are, whenever you want to get away from them mi casa is always available."

" What about me?" Slim asked

" You already show up whenever, eat all my shit then leave."

" And you know this." Slim said while laughing.

It's the middle of October and it's my time to leave for NYC.

 Josh and my brother are meeting me at the airport tomorrow morning. Stephanne is staying down here for a while until after she has the baby then she's probably going to come up to get her stuff.

After New York i'm going home then i'm going to see my dad. The last time I spoke to him he was in the process of filing for divorce. At first, I was afraid she might try to take more of his money but my dad said he got a pre-nup.

I just want our family to be one again.

Rook, AJ, and Basil all came to give me a hug at the same time. Rook said " Y'know i'm actually going to miss you this time."

I put my hand to my chest like i was hurt and sarcastically said " wow, that means so much."

He laughed " you know what I mean."

Basil and AJ took my bags and put them in the trunk for me. Everyone else said their goodbyes.

 I wasn't expecting Colson to say a word to me seeing as we barely spoke the whole time I had been with them so I was a little surprised when he walked up to me. He bent down to give me a hug and a kiss on the forehead. In the past, those little gestures would put me into overdrive, At one point in time i loved that about him but now it does nothing for me, just a simple goodbye.

In my ear he whispered a soft apology " I hope you have it in your heart to forgive me and all the pain I've caused."

I looked up at him and rubbed my hand softly across his face. " I forgive you, This just taught me that we weren't as meant for each other as we thought."

There are still a lot of questions that were left unanswered about the last few months of our relationship and the severity of how it ended but I think it's best if we leave it in the past.

" I hope you have it in your heart to love the next woman as much as you loved me maybe even more."

Even with all the flaws and mistakes Colson has made there is no doubt in my mind that he was in love with me and loved me with everything he had.

" I can never say you didn't love me because God knows you did, I still have love for you and I always will. you were my first love for God sakes."

Colson had a single tear running down his face, now he's smirking at me trying to wipe it away.

" Look, now you have me crying." He wiped my tears then gave me another hug, he rested his face in my hair.

" I will always love you Snow, I swear you are one of the best things that has ever come into my life. I know we aren't together but you will always have a place in my heart."

Colson let go of me then grabbed my hand and we walked out the bus together.

" Y'know Casie is gonna be upset you aren't at the block party."

" I know but i'll try to make it up to her."

We all packed ourselves into the Uber and we all drove to the airport. Reg, the bus driver went to get the bus cleaned so everyone had to come. While we were in the car Josh text me and told me to call him. I decided to face time him.