I Love You, You Know That Right? :Phanfic

Sadness.

Phil's POV
(TRIGGER WARNING)
*4 hours after Dan left

The pain in my heart is unbearable. It feels like I am being ripped apart from the inside.

"WHY AM I SUCH A FUCKING IDIOT?!" I scream.

I was right. I do have feeling for Dan, and now he is gone. The love of my life is gone. I need to get rid of this torture inside me.

I can't live in a world without Dan.

It takes all my strength, but I get up. I drag myself to the bathroom.

I look at myself in the mirror.

"Pathetic."

I open the mirror, grab my razor, and break the cheap plastic encasing it. I take out the small piece of metal. I slouch down. Why can't I stop crying? I look down at my arms, all the previous scars are still visible. I haven't cut since I met Dan. So, so long ago.

Dan.

It feels like my chest is about to explode, I need to release the pain.

I let the blade slice through my skin. It feels so good.

Again.

Again.

Again.

I stop and look at my arms. I went too deep, not on accident. The blood starts pooling around me, and I smile.

"Im so sorry, Dan."

Then I let the darkness carry me away.

Hey Guys! So a lot just happened. Some of you may be asking, why doesn't phil just chase after dan if he is that worried about losing him? The reason is that phil in my story has had experience eith depression in the past, so he just breaks down, and his mind is telling him to do stupid things.

If any of you guys are dealing with depression or suicidal thoughts, just know, I am here for you. A lot of other people are here for you too. Never give up. We love you <3