His Second Bride Her Second Love

Chapter 11 A day In Mr Stone's Mind

I dedicate this chapter to -

1. @Pyarra

2. @shardaz6

3. @Dibajia

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RICKKARD STONE

I was working on my laptop when Sarah's mail popped up telling me about the details of finance.I sighed.We have been interacting only  through mail since the past week after the incident at the washroom.I tried my best to ignore her at all cost and she also did the same.We always used to talk only in presence of someone else, I don't trust myself if I happen to be alone with her because I am sure I will definitely kiss her next time,so I tried avoiding her.If she went to the lobby I would go to the pool area in our free time.I closed my laptop and sighed again.This was not me.I,Rickkard Stone have never avoided anyone I was always the one who had situation under control but this girl was turning my control upside down.

I don't understand what to do in her presence.It was just as if my mind becomes numb and my body appears to be going towards her.Last week at Mr Maxwell party she ruled my mind.I just could not keep my eyes off her and I think she thinks that I am creepy.But when she disappeared I got anxious.I waited for some time but she was no where to be found.I checked everywhere but I should have sense that she must be in the washroom but when it comes to her all my senses go away.

I just pinned her on the wall and was about to kiss her.Fuck! What she must be thinking about me.I never planned on kissing her,I just wanted to find her because the people there at the party were not so nice.When they set eyes on someone they just do anything to have it.

When I saw her in the washroom I was so relieved, and didn't know what came over me to say those stupid embarrassing to her.She must have thought that I am so lame.Even I could not believe I said those words!But she was looking so beautiful,its not that I have never seen beautiful girls trust me I have seen and had plenty of beautiful girls but Sarah always seem to be different from those in many ways.She was so gorgeous, so innocent and when you look at her eyes the only word you could think was pure.Her eyes reflected her heart and she was wearing the dress which I brought and it gave me immense joy to see it.I had personally asked Chris to bring that dress when I saw it at the store.I knew it was made for her.I had never brought anything myself for someone,I just gave them money to buy anything they want.

She was making me feel weird things,things I thought that I could never feel.It is for the first time that I become nervous in front of someone,first time that my heart beats at so rapid speed,first time that I feel to talk about useless things with someone.I had no idea what these feelings were and I was terrified of them.I like to control the situation whether in personal life or professional life but she was making me loose my control.

She made me feel that I am alive,like I do have a heart and I am living which I forgot a long time ago.I always wanted to be alone,I had only one friend since I joined business and I was not interested in talking with others.During the storm I had opportunity to be alone in my room without disturbance but I chose to be with her and when she started to get comfortable around me,it gave my heart a little reassurance.I did not thought she would talk to me but she did,she was among those few people who could never remain angry with anyone for a long time.She thought she hated me but she did not have the heart to hate anyone,she just disliked me.I smiled myself at the thought which was so unusual for me-to smile but I have been doing that a lot whenever I think about her.I think something is wrong with me,I need to see to a doctor.

I don't know if I like these feelings but I just want to control myself and did not want to get attached with someone.Sarah dislikes me and that is equivalent to hate for her.She would never betray her sister because she thinks that Ivory died because of me.It is true to some extent.I would never forgive myself for her death but how much I try to forget what Ivory did I could not forget and also could not forgive her.For the very first time I was truely happy but she took that away from me.I was so devasted and I could not talk to anyone about it, I was so angry and felt so empty and that's when I forgot how to live my life and focused only on business.I took a deep breath and closed my eyes.
I don't want to think about that now.